[0xwaterx0]

i told my parents thinking they would help me
i thought it was a good thing to do
my mom had to tell my dad something
she couldnt just send me off to tlk to a therapist
and not tell him anything,
so she just told him i was depressed
later, when we were out somewhere,
he told me
"this is just sumthing u have to deal with
you dont need any help"
so now i cant get help...AND my mom knows.
i never imagined it would be like this
and now i cant even look at my mom
everytime i do i remember that she knows what ive done
it kills me
its so awkward when im alone with her .
the other night she came in my room
she told me she was misssing a knife
and she asked if i took it
THAT was unbearable
i dont know why but it made me feel so depressed
i just wish everything wouldve gone like i thought it wouldve

[Christina86]

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That sucks. Maybe you can get your mom to tell your dad more about what's up so you can get help? ... or, if you can, maybe you can tell your dad yourself why you need help?

[littlemissjess]

Aw. I'm so sorry to hear that your parents reacted that way. When I told my mother at first, she was shocked and kind of responded the same way your mother did, except then she asked if I wanted help then I said yes. Try talking to a school counsellor or a friend's parent. They would be a huge help too. I just hope you can find the help that you need

[Fifth_Sonata]

Oh man!
That's wretched. Really. What is it with fathers and thinking "it's all just a phase?" because of that ******** attitude I've been living with SI for nearly ten years and I'm scared of getting close to people.

You don't need to end up like that.

Your mother should know that your father's opinion is against her better judgement. That's terrible she's going to just let it go.
Why don't you try talking to a school counselor? Explain to them your situation, and the one with your parents. You obviously need help and you can find it. Try sending a question to the "ask the therapist" columnists and see what they have to say!

[Rapunzel]

I hope that your dad will come around. There are way too many people who just don't want to deal with their problems, and don't think that other people should either. That's his choice if he is satisfied with life the way it is and wants to stick his head in the sand like an ostrich. But it is not okay to not allow you to have a chance to be healthy and have the kind of life that you want. It is very common that dysfunctional families have (non)communication patterns that involve just ignoring any problems or expecting people to just get over it without help. I'm not saying that your family is dysfunctional - I don't know your family and it isn't up to me to say. It's just a very common pattern. It's not healthy to deny problems and expect them to just go away. They tend to fester instead.

I wonder if there is another responsible adult, such as a school counselor or religious leader or a teacher you get along with that you could recruit to support you. They could help convince your parents that you do need some help, and also be a support for you. At least you would have someone you can talk to. It helps a lot just to have someone acknowledge the things that you know but your family wants to deny. You can get some validation that way and know that it isn't just all you.

Keep us updated.
Rap

[0xwaterx0]

thanks for your support everyone
im just going to talk about it some more with my mom
(ill just try to overcome the awkwardness)
and i think i can get her to at least talk to my dad

ill do everything very calmly
and be especially nice to him before she talks to him
(if she talks to him)
so that way my dad wont get aggrivated before she does
i dont want my mom paying for the things ive done

[littlemissjess]

Well sometimes you have to pay for things you can't help. It's like tripping or falling and breaking something. So sorry your dad had to find out. Mine still doens't though. But hope you do good, this is a huge struggle. And even though my mom knew 2 years ago, it's STILL awkward when I bring it up, but not as bad. Things just take time. Hang in there.

[Direction]

Assuming your parents are married (meaning there is no divorce decree requiring that they agree on medical treatment) there is no reason your mom can't set up the appointments and take you. Yes, he will eventually see the insurance and copay - oh well...

Make sure your mom knows what your dad had to say. I'm guessing she won't be happy and will straightened him out on the statistics etc.

Good luck

[0xwaterx0]

yes, they are married
but my dad has complete control over anything that goes on in my family
no one can do anything without his approval
if we do, the punishment is harsh

[Direction]

I'm sorry-that's a tough situation to be in

Maybe it would be easiest (just thinking out loud) to write it all down - maybe a "report". This site is loaded with information.

You could submit it to them in the form of a school paper?

You seem to be a fighter and want help - I guess you will really have to fight for that help to be provided

I really ache for you...hang in there!