balance bad with good

I don't know if this is triggering or not so I put the symbol just in case. I've been trying to make myself work out. Body image is a big deal with me and I quit all physical excersize about 5 months ago. Going 5 months without working out or even doing yoga is a long time for me. Finally today I thought I couldn't go to the gym and see all the other people but I could put in an aerobics video and that at home all by myself. But before I could do that I had to cut myself, not bad just once. Then I could work out, it was like I had to balance the thought of doing something very positive and healthy with something negative. Has anyone else experienced this?

Yeah, I relate to that. I find it hard to get much or any exercise done through the winter, and sometimes overdo it in the summer. I don't have to cut myself, but I push myself too far with the Yoga. I love my flexibility video, because I can feel those muscles for days after doing it.

Have you thought about why you need to punish yourself in association with doing something good for yourself?

"Have you thought about why you need to punish yourself in association with doing something good for yourself? "

Well, that's a good question, the important one I know. I don't know the answer, but I'll try to work through it. I'm guessing it is somewhat common, so I'd be interested to hear what other people have discovered.

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