[dreamer62604]

hi everyone. i have gotten much worse since the last time that i was here. and i know that most of you probably won't care. but...i dunno, i'mre trying to reach out, or something. i've moved from only cutting to also burning. done that a handful of times. have accelarated my cutting as well. have been seeing my new T once a week for about a month now, but i don't see that going anywhere really. i think that i am on a downward spiral, i seem to be doing more and more self harming things. like stopping my medicine. i haven't been taking it, because i don't think that it is doing me any good. i have also been OD'ing on pills every once in a while...i dunno, i'm so messed up, and i just can't seem to get back on track. school is finally over, so that's good, i guess. except for the fact that i don't have a job, so i am just home all day, left to stew and contemplate. anyway...i dunno what my deal is anymore. i can't seem to get above this, i just keep sinking. sorry to bother.

~dreamer~

[b] These wounds won't seem to heal...this pain is just too real..there's just too much that time cannot erase....[b]

[Rapunzel]

Welcome back, Kati. When you are ready, I have no doubt that things will turn around for you. I know you have so much to accomplish with your life - but you need to have a goal and keep it in sight, and work towards it. A reason to stop being a victim of your past.

Did you notice that you may think that most people won't care, but that statement acknowleges that some do. More people care about you than you know. I care about you. When we have trouble caring about ourselves, it is so hard to believe that others care about us, but that is what we have to hang onto for now.

Wendy


<font color=orange>"If we are going to insist that people pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, we must ensure that they have boots."</font color=orange>

[SweetCrusader]

Sorry to hear that you are struggling. What kinds of things have been going on that are making it hard for you to stop hurting yourself?

"Blessed be the cracked, for they let in the light"
-Author Unknown

[SweetCrusader]

PS....

((((((((((((((((((((((((4 U))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
(lots of them)

SweetCrusader (Angela)

"Blessed be the cracked, for they let in the light"
-Author Unknown

[PlanningtoLive]

Dreamer, welcome back.

I care about you also, and the troubles you are having.

Until you stop running from whatever is making you do this and discuss it with your T, you will continue to harm yourself. Now, has that really accomplished anything at all? Not from my chair over here.

It seems to be making you feel worse and more depressed and then you SI more............you've got a vicious circle here and it needs to really stop. It won't till you talk openly with someone and try to deal with whatever issues you have.

I stopped SI ing awhile back - when I really looked at the marks on my body and realized that I was doing nothing but making horrible cuts that I would have to grow old with........

Please start trying to help yourself.

Mary Alice

[dreamer62604]

*sigh*

[b] These wounds won't seem to heal...this pain is just too real..there's just too much that time cannot erase....[b]

[PlanningtoLive]

Sorry for throwing in my thoughts, dreamer.

Regardless, I do care what happens to you.

:::::::stepping out of the picture::::::::::::::::::

[dreamer62604]

i'm sorry that i came back, i did what i knew i would do, i caused trouble, and made people feel bad. i am sorry. i am going to go again.

[b] These wounds won't seem to heal...this pain is just too real..there's just too much that time cannot erase....[b]