Numb

I think my brain short circuted or something. Ive been so stressed that it is running on low power. I went through the whole day but I don't remember anything except my husband telling me he wants to die. I went to walmart and to a church I don't know. The only reason I know this is because There is walmart stuff in my house that I don't remember buying. Also a bulliten from a church. Its not even my denomination that I follow. Where did I go and not know it. i cant go on no more. If I tell my husband I need a break he will just tell me that It is his fault and he will just take pills and die or something. I love him so much but I feel like I am walking on egg shells. i am so afraid I will trigger him. My pdoc told me that i am supposed to have two hours to myself daily. No daughter no husband no nobody. Tomarrow I am going to the ymca.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((twirls)))))))))))))))))))))))))) It sounds like you may be on overload. Your pdoc may have a good idea to have a couple hours a day just for you. I know it really heps me and I can tell when I haven't had a little time to myself. If you still find yourself having difficulty you may want to call you pdoc for more suggestions. I hope the ymca helps tomorrow.

BB

(((((((((((((((((((twirls))))))))))))))))))) i am so sorry you're in so much pain right now...so much that you've gone completely numb!!!

take comfort though - God is watching! he may have set you down in the wrong church building but he got you in one! lol ...maybe just his way of letting you know he's with you...even when you are not completely with yourself!!!

and wal-mart? well i think wal-mart has it's own gravitational pull...wouldn't read too much into that one...lol

seriously....please take care of yourself. you nave to...so you can be strong for your family. you HAVE to take care of yourself!!!! keep posting!!!