It has been ___ days since I SIed -- Part W!!

Well done skye and child

Day 8 but it's still here

Great job whispershadow!

One day at a time.

7 days, I relapsed ,__,

Good job on the seven days! No one can take that away from you.

You can start another good run!

1 day...

(((((childofchaos831)))))

I don't care any more.

This is day five. If I can make it through today it will be five.

(((((whispershadow)))))

Day 1 again...

(((((childofchaos831)))))

((((Hugs))))

Today will be day 6 if I can get through it. I'm definitely going to try.

Good luck SlumberKitty!

Day 7. Wow, one whole week.

Congratulations SlumberKitty!

9 days....I feel like an episode is coming but I'm trying to distract myself, focus on other stuff, and basically not give in to it.

Nicely done SlumberKitty!

What helps best for not giving in?

Emailing my T--but that won't be an option for much longer. Playing with my dog or snuggling with my cat. Doing artwork. Taking a walk. Listening to music that's positive and upbeat. Acknowledging what I want to do usually helps me not doing it whereas suppressing it makes it worse. Thinking about the damage I'll do. All of these things help to varying degrees at different times.

Made it to day 10. The wanting to has died down a bit.

Well done SlumberKitty!

You have a lot of helpful tools and insight. That's great!

Back to zero. It's okay. I made it 12 days. I know today and tomorrow are going to be rough. I just need to remember not to be too rough on myself.

Twelve days is a fine achievement! Good job!



You can start another good run!



What will make today and tomorrow especially tough?

Tomorrow I say goodbye via phone to my therapist of 10 years. She got MS and can't see me (or any clients) anymore. She allowed phone contact this Summer so I could find a new T which I have, so now it is time to say goodbye. This T let me email her between sessions which my new T hasn't, and that was really helpful with dealing with SH urges, so I have to get out my other coping skills and get back to not SH-ing so much. New T doesn't seem to have regular appointments, it's just whenever she can fit me in, so it's not as ideal, but I'm hoping as things get going with new T that the loss of old T won't be so strong. Right now it's horrible. I didn't want to SH because I wanted to honor the work we did together in a better way but in the end the pain and sadness and sorrow won out and so I SH-ed. I know I probably will SH tomorrow too but then after that I need to be strong and use my coping skills, and get back to not SH-ing for like a month at a time, where I was before. This hasn't been the best Summer for me in terms of SH, but it hasn't been the worst either.