[TiredGirl1277]

New to forum so hello (if anyone ever reads this)... So when I was younger, just out of highschool I guess it was. I would break drinking glasses and use the shards to cut my arms. It was nothing serious, as in I never cut myself too deeply or hit any arteries. Eventually, I developed different "coping mechanisms" instead and the habit waned. Now I'm in my early thirties and, after an argument with my son, I decided I was just fed up and tired of being unhappy. Im not sure what my intention was, but I went into the bathroom with a box cutter and went to work on my wrists, again the cuts we're superficial. When I was done I was so exhausted I fell asleep on a bath mat in the middle of the day. I slept for hours. When I woke up I wandered into bed and slept the remainder of that day and night away too.
The only person I told that I did this was my boyfriend, who looked at the wounds without comment. I guess that's what compelled me to write this. You see, I was already embarrassed by my actions. With the cuts in the right place I was not making suicide attempt. I don't know what I was thinking or trying to do really, but his complete lack of concern left me feeling embarrassed by what I had done.. As the title says "too old to be doing this". Just venting I guess. I would like to ask him why he didn't care that this happened, which is what it seems like, but I've already told him I'm embarrassed by my behavior, and he just has nothing to say. Anyway If anyone read this, thanks for listening.