It has been years since I SIed but I sit here tonight kinda missing it. I am really stressed out right now and husband wont give me me time. I never get free time for myself. I keep thingking that if I SI I will get some attention for me instead of the world revolving aroung his egotistic nacisitic self. The main reason that I SIed is because no one seemed to care about me unless I was in the hospital in crisis. I was guranteed at least three days in if I SIed until they caught on and put me in a long term hospital for a while. I really do not wish to go back to that life style.

I want to open up to my T so bad but I am terrified. I just keep keeping this all inside. I am afraid that if I tell them what is in my head they will take my daughter from me. I will not hurt myself. I just am terrified to tell T I still ocasionally have thoughts. I wish I could say something like tonight when I could really use T's support. I can cope through this but some help as we all know is better. Someone please give me some ideas or experiences, especially if you have children

Missing it no more. Called help line and talked to someone. got it all out.

[bipolar_bear]

I am so glad you found some support and it helped.

BB

[Christina86]

((((((((((twirls)))))))))))))

Sorry I wasnt around when you first posted.

I understand wanting attention/help and what measures we'll take to get it... is there any way you could hypothetically ask your T what they would do if you told them about this (without really asking them) to see if they'd take your kids away??

Be safe. Glad you were able to talk to someone.

[bchlyn]

you know i have been with my t for a very long time...off and on... and i still worry about telling him how i am feeling sometimes... i got brave enough to tell him the last time we were together and his response to me was very caring and supportive... i think you t would be too... at times he has to pin me down to make sure that i am safe...but mostly he would rather i said it then keep it inside... i am glad you found someone you could talk to safely...lyn