[blackdragon]

I haft to do the hardest thing i will ever do. I am going to give up my two rabbis Monty and Mary. I cant juggle work, school, play practice, and take care of them. The thing that really gets me down is how my mom is reacting. She just dont get it that i really care about them, and would give my life for them. She is acting like a b****. She doesnt care about how im feeling. i know for a fact cause when ever i ask her to help me with them she just says their not my rabbits, and u should of thought about that before we got them..i got them 7 years ago.. oh yeah 7 years ago i didnt have a job, play practice, or a life... well i still dont have a life.. I cant stand how she treats me.. For heaven sakes the freaken TV she has is worth more to her than me.. I dont understand, she watches TV 24 hrs a day. Cant she spare 5 minnutes to help me once with my rabbits... I cant take her anymore.. I want to get her attention but how can i compete with her best friend, best friends daughter, the TV and the dang dog.. Yes the dog is worth more than me too. I cant compete... I cant go on like this... I want to be 18 now instead of 17. i want those 4 months to go by now, just so i can go away.. I cant even cry... It make my mom more mad if i cry... So what can i do, keep cutting my self, work, and play perfect for her... I ruined her life... i ruined my life.. and everyone elses life that they come in contact with me... I give up.. i just GIVE UP....

[(JD)]

I'm sorry you're feeling so low... about the rabbits, do you have plans for when you are 18, like moving out on your own, then you could maybe hang on to them for another 16 to 20 weeks??

[Leslie]

((((((((((((((Blackdragon)))))))))))))))

Boy, I wish your mom understood better how much you love those rabbits. I know you are going through a tough time right now. You are young and when you do move out and have your own life you can get what ever animal you would like. Keep posting and chating with us.

Leslie

[Zenobia]

I wish you could print off what you just wrote and give it to your mother. I wish she could hear you and stop disregarding the most valuable thing in her life which is you. She is going to wake up one day and realize she missed out on something beautiful and she isn't going to ever be able to get it back. You deserve to be number one in her life. I am sorry you aren't getting that.
You are in my thoughts,
Carrie <font color="purple">

[SweetCrusader]

Amen, Zenobia!!

Blackdragon, I am soo sorry about what you're going through. It hurts to feel like you are your parent's last priority. (((hugs))) <-- if you want them. It's just awful feeling that way. It makes it harder to deal with the rest of your life, because of all the bad feelings you develop about yourself and your sense of safety and being wanted in the world. And it's even worse when you look outside of the child-parent relationship for the love that you don't get from them, and they resent everything you do to try to find more love (rabbits, extracurricular activities, etc). I really feel for you.

Unfortunately I have also known in my life what it's like when a parent doesn't recognize the importance of your pets. My dad used to hurt my pets. When a child or teenager lives in a bad environment and doesn't get enough love and care, her pets can be like her soulmates, I know! I remember being a little tiny girl and holding my puppy Rootbeer, as I sat on my porch and just cried because of how sad and lonely I was. That puppy was my best friend in the world. And I couldn't tell anyone about why I was so sad. I can imagine you have bonded with your rabbits even more, because you've had them for so long!! They've been a huge part of your life since you were very young. I really wish for you that you can find a way to keep them.

((((blackdragon))))

Angela

[blackdragon]

thanks all... Today a new arguement came up. What hurt the most was when my mom said Oh ur gonna cry in a corner now? She gets even more mad when i cry. I wish i could.. But i lost that ability... Along with a sense of who i am.. I feel like a slave.. Thanks for ur help... I want to keep them yet i want them to go to a home where they dont haft to live on chereos for weeks. (Cause my mom wont buy them food and i haft so many bills, and if i had 20 dollars left over for a 10 lb bag of rabbit food (which is rare) i buy them food) thanks

[(JD)]

I didn't notice if you have some good plans for moving out and supporting yourself... but if you do, can you "farm out" the rabbits to someone until you can takethem back? Or, is there a rescue center for bunnies anywhere around? That would make sure they are well taken care of.

Now, for yourself, please do plan for your own care. You only have a short time before you can be free from the constant abuse, but you will need therapy to become free from the results of all that meanness!