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Hello,
I was just reading a few posts on this forum and noticed that you guys seem like a close nit group. That is really good. I am a newbie at this whole talking about emotions thing so I'm sorry ahead of time.
I already posted in the depressions group and found some really nice people that suggested posting in here. I have never ever told anyone that i cut myself before joining this site. Not online to strangers or to family or friends. I knew it was a problem when i started last year but I couldnt bring myself to telling anyone in fear that i would be rejected even more. I would just use cutting as a quick way to elliviate stress and self-hatred becuase I had no way of expressing that in anyother way. I tried talking with my best friend how I felt but she is more of the--'suck it up' type that feels that other people's lives are worse. I just internalized that and cut even more. I stopped during the summer when school was out becuase i had less stress but I have picked it up again and it is even worse. I do it more often and deeper than ever before. I keep telling myself that it isnt right but i just feel so much better afterwards. it isnt a good time for me right now and I'm affraid that if i take this one thing away i will do something worse....

hi (((((angel))))), nice to meet you.
you are right, ppl here are very supportive of one another, I hope that you find as much support as I have here.
***possible trigger for ppl who cut***
Just one thing, you say you are cutting deeper now than before. As someone who does this too, can I please suggest that if you are getting deeper you find a nurse, counsellor or dr that you can trust as you may find that you need medical attention for the cuts. Some may not seem too deep, but if you cut into the muscle it can cause further damage later on...
And also, if you find someone you can trust then you will have some further support open to you. Take care, and see you around.

Welcome to the forum angel.

Many people have experienced the secrecy of SI and some of the emotions it brings such as shame and fear of rejection. It is a coping skill and it can work. Unfortunately it is not one of the best to use. Maybe you can start to explore other skills when you are feeling stressed and start to replace the cutting with them?

Please get medical attention if you need to. I don't know if it is an option but many times it is beneficial to find someone to talk to about your stress such as a t or counselor. You may want to consider that. Also if it helps please keep posting here.

BB

Welcome. Si is a didduly thing to work through but you came to the right place. There are so many caring people here. I know they helped me through some extra hard times and have helped me be successful. Keep posting and keep you're chin up. Were here for you

Take gentle care

Colleen

hi angel... i think most of us here have a hard time with emotions and stress... the only people who know that i do it are my t (therapist) and some online friends... i have cut most of my life... i started pretty young.... about 9 .... i went for many years without... so it is possible to break the cycle... it would be really good for you to find a t or another professional that can help you work through it... take gentle care ...lyn

Hi angel!!
We are more than happy to give you support. For me personally this fourm has helped tremendously. Noone knows that I cut either execpet for here. It's hard to work through but we are all here to help each other. Best of Luck to you angel and rember we're all here for you!!