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Jun 23, 2008, 05:36 PM
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 <font color="#000088"> i want to hurt myself. it's been a month or so since i hurt myself last. i went years w/o doing anything. then i suffered what i guess you'd call a nervous breakdown last summer. i started cutting and burning myself again. part of me wants to stop. but part of me is glad i'm doing it again. since last summer, i've scarred my arms so badly i have to cover them with long sleeves. i was in therapy very briefly, but i lost my job and lost my insurance. so i couldn't afford to continue. i had been focussed on finding a job while i was on unemployment. then an elderly family member became sick and i helped care for her. she died last month. now i'm depressed, anxious, unemployed & running out of money. just not sure what to do next...where to turn... btw, is there anyone reading this who understands what a D/s relationship is? this adds to my suffering because i've been told not to hurt myself. </font> |
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Jun 23, 2008, 10:00 PM
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I'm sorry you're having such a tough time right now. ((((((((blue_roses)))))))
You really sound like you need to get back in therapy. Talk to health and human services about getting some form of medicaid insurance. If that doesn't work, you migt want to look into local psych resources. Some therapists have sliding scales and will lower their charge to accomodate your needs. In regards to SI, you should check out the recent post on urge surfing. It's really helpful. I've been able to keep myself from hurting myself for quite a long time with that technique. Know that we're here for you, and welcome to PC!  Take care,   J
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Jun 24, 2008, 11:22 PM
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((((((((((((((((((((((((blue roses)))))))))))))))))))))))))) Can you contact your local mental health places and see what support they have available for someone in your financial situation? There may be some that you can go to. I am sorry that things are so hard for you right now.
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Jun 25, 2008, 04:00 PM
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(((((((((J & BB)))))))))))
thank you for the kind words. i have not hurt myself so far. i've been sleeping too much and just don't want to bother with it! i'm in one of those icky nothingness states of mind. i feel nothing. i want to do nothing. nothing.... i guess that's why i actually want to want to hurt myself right now. so i'll feel something. anything. just can't seem to care enough to even hurt myself. just want to sleep and forget the world exists... |
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Jun 25, 2008, 08:54 PM
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I am so sorry you are so shut down emotionally. That can be so hard too. I can understand how the urge to SI is tugging at you right now. Can you think of some other ways to cope while you are going through this difficult time? There are some suggestions at the top of the forum.
BB
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Jun 25, 2008, 09:07 PM
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((((blue)))))
That empty feeling is horrifying... At least for me, succumbing to that feeling and trying to ride it out by doing nothing only intensifies it. Could you try to set a goal for yourself, even if it's really small, to try to do something, especially something you enjoy and that is self-nurturing? Even doing one little thing has had profound effects on my mood. Hope this passes soon. Take care, J
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Jun 26, 2008, 10:54 AM
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hi BB & J
i think i might be feeling a little better this morning! let's hope...even if it's only for a little while. (((((hugs))))))) |
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Jun 26, 2008, 11:00 AM
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(((((blue)))))
Hope the feeling lasts! Take care, J
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Jun 26, 2008, 11:04 AM
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((((((((((((((( blue_roses )))))))))))))))
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Jun 27, 2008, 12:39 AM
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((((((((((((((blue_roses))))))))))))))
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Jun 27, 2008, 08:18 AM
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((((((((blue roses))))))))))
Please dont hurt yourself! Try and hold your head up and look at the bright side of things when you feel down like that I hope you continue to be scar free  babyg xXx
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