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In effort to build some strength, I've emailed a certain cop a few times recently. He's the one I mentioned in a post in general who I said gave me a gift. He never gave me his work email address, but I know how they are formatted. I don't know if it's "legal" (legal, as in acceptable) for me to email a cop like him, but figure if they didn't want outside emails they would have more of a block on them. Plus there is at least one person there who publicizes his email address on literature for a citizen training program. Anyway, I've told him about in talking and expanded on it in an email about that I will sometimes SI when I have moods. Since ER's tend to give me a lot more stress, I was kind of thinking that maybe if I get a mood to do SI, maybe I could have the police any potential tools that I might use for it to be held for 24 hours. Then I could pick them up and roll up my pants legs, if need be, to show that I didn't harm myself. However anything works out, I think it's good for the police to be fully aware how I can react to stress and PTSD by harming myself. I think it will be better off for both sides because the police trigger me as well! I hope my obnoxious emails actually help him/them at the police. I assume so. I don't have a T or pdoc, so I need somebody who I can depend on besides my primary medical doctor.

[Christina86]

((((((((((Inky))))))))))))))

I hope that helps you. Let us know if he emails back, ok?

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((( inky ))))))))))))))))

[Kiya]

Good luck with it! Sounds like a plan.
kiya

[bipolar_bear]

I hope it works out well for you.

BB

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Thanks. I hope it works out too. I am a little worried that I may have worried the police though. I know how serious they are about people hurting themselves. I don't them to be feeling like they are walking on eggshells with me. On another hand, them knowing all of this about me might encourage them to talk to the local homeless office and MAKE them renew my registration for the current "season" and find me psych treatment! The way things stand, if the shelters were open now I wouldn't be allowed in because they wouldn't renew my homeless ID. Everything is all screwed up. Maybe getting the police involved--even through unsolicited emails--could actually turn out to be a good idea?

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I got an email reply from him! Shocked the heck outta me, LOL! I think he seems to be ok with the emails. And he said that he will check on me if he sees me. I'd mentioned that he/other cops might want to do that because I could have used a trustworthy "babysitter" one day, and I would have actually volunteered and given the cop any items that I could potentially use to harm myself for 24 hours. I had just the "right" bad mood that I would have offered it and brought it up myself--I was feeling that bad! I normally am scared to ask for help. I think it doesn't feel like I'm asking for so much help if I just ask someone to hold on to the things for me. I am hoping that by doing it this way, maybe even eventually I will be able to always have these things with me and not ever use them in a bad way. Like teaching myself how to use them properly again? Hope you get the idea.