[purplebutterfly]

I need to feel something other than what i am feeling.

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I know that feeling.

Can you look at the sticky on here with the lists of things to do instead of cutting? Maybe there is something there that will help.

I know it's SO hard to resist the urge....but maybe if you look at the list, and give yourself a little time to ride this wave, it will pass?

Please be safe.

[purplebutterfly]

I know this will probably get deleted but this is my thinking right now and today- i am trying to fight it but i just want to share my feelings. Sorry if i upset anyone. I am just trying to tell you how i feel at this moment.
1. Infections........I can take care of them, I am good at it now.
2. Scars......I have plenty what is one more going to do.
3. Loss of blood......i want to see blood and feel the pain go.
4. Friends and family around you get hurt.....no one cares if i do it.
5. Death or hospital......yeah okay.
6. Waste of time .....not really it helps me.
7. Stealing (Like sharp objects that don't belong to you)....i do not steal anything i have been doing this long enought that i now have tools of the trade.
8. It's not easy to hide self harming....i do it all the time.

[Christina86]

Pretty (((((((((((((purplebutterfly))))))))))))))))

I so understand that feeling. It's so hard to take care of ourselves and choose another behaviour than trying to deal with feelings/emotions and stuff.

What about this... can you change how you're feeling, maybe by writing it out? Listening to relaxing music, or something that allows you to vent (I like to listen to loud music when I'm feeling angry) ... what about going for a long walk... you'll be tired out by the time you get back home. Or watch a funny movie to get your mind off of things? I've done all those things... so maybe they'd help you?

Be safe, you're worth it. We care.

[Typo]

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[purplebutterfly]

[MINIME]

Hey purple, Im sorry you feel so badly. I never really got the actual depth of the yucky feeling until last night. Im so sorry. Please let me know how you are doin ok? PM me if u want. I barely made it through last night, and it was a struggle I get it now.

[purplebutterfly]

It really doesn't matter anymore- just an empty shell of nothing- the pain hurts to bad. im sorry for even posting this in the first place. i just have no one no one at all- just want to feel something else. so i will just continue to hide my feelings and let my feelings out in secret. the only way i know how to.

[MINIME]

Why are u sorry? Please dont stuff your feelings. I wish that I had the right words for you. You have me if you want. I can give you my email address..

[Fuzzybear]

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