We are scared--------and fighting-------------------------------- ---------------

It is days like today that we are finding it very hard to keep from hurting or cutting. We feel useless and dirty----and very bad. The system has let us down. I am having trouble looking at anyone or speaking to anyone. I want to just slip off somewhere where no one will notice that I am gone, where no one will notice I have left the room. Where no one will care.

It would not take much as no one even thinks to check here for my posting so they do not know how I feel nor would they care. I am not tht important to think about. Days come and go and I seem to slip in and out, some days noticed some days not. I just need to relieve the pain for the moment. I know the pain will come back but for the moment I can feel it seep out, and feel it as though it escapes through my body. For once I can cleanse myself of the evilness I carry.

Sometimes I wonder where am I. This is one such moment--I am scared as are the insides. As we fight this battle inside and out for what we know to be right. Who will win? We have won for so long now--but we have not been hurt in a while. It is all our fault.

dps and insides

((((( DPS & Insides )))))

I'm sorry you're hurting but try and write, try and distract your mind away from self injury. Nothing is your fault, I know it seems hard to believe and hard to see it like that sometimes but you have done nothing wrong.

Take care.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((( dps ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
(((((((((((((((((((((( insides )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I see you.

I'm sorry it's so hard right now. Keep posting here, get it out.

It won't always feel like this.

((((((((((((( darkpurplesecrets )))))))))))))))
here with you, holding your hand,
love
Fuzzy

DPS and insides,
It is good that you are writing. It's true - so many ppl here are also hurting and may not realize when one of us goes missing right away so we all need to KEEP IN TOUCH with each other. It is almost like an actual committment with each other as a semi-functioning group, yes? That way we are responsible for reaching out which is so important.
I am very very glad you are still here and reaching out. I don't know why humans have to suffer so much pain or feel so isolated.
Very good work in reaching out. Hugs to you if they will ease your pain any.... please stay connected! "None one can fill those of your needs that you won't let show."

(((((((DPS)))))))) (((((((insides)))))))) hey they you are very important to me and i hope you don't hurt yourself....... but i care about you nomatter what ...... take care and big safe gentile huggies ......

((((((((((((all of darkpurplesecrets)))))))))))))))))

Hi my friend...

I know that even when I don't hear from you for days, I wonder how you're doing. You are cared about, even if I don't constantly check in with you to see how you're doing. I'm sorry I don't... feeling alone and like nobody cares really sucks.

Feelings do not make you who you are. You aren't useless or bad or dirty. You are a good friend, and a beautiful person who I like to hear from - no matter what.

I'm sorry things are rough for you right now. PM me to talk, alright? Love you lots.