Sometimes i feel like such a worthless sl*t. I hate myself so much sometimes. Its this overwheming deep thing that I want to destroy myself and I've been having some deep sad days and i dont even wanna take my meds. I'm finding it hard to pull thru.. I binge and purged 3 times today which is allot more than normal. I cut. I am just feeling so self-destructive. I just feel like there is no love to be had for me. None. I dunno wots wrong with me.

[itsjustme111]

Sorry to hear that your feeling this way. Don't have much to offer either than I feel for u very much.

Is there someone close by that can come and be with you?

Please be safe and keep posting. My warm thoughts are with you and wish you better days ahead.

Justy

[Zenobia]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Esther}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I wish I could help you find the beautiful person that you are. Sometimes we just can't see it. My T assures me that even when I don't feel it or see it in the mirror, I am a beautiful person. She reminds me that when I learn to love myself there will always be love for me even when those who are close to me are having a hard time and can't give it. It is so hard sometimes though to remember to love ourselves. Try to find a way today to say to yourself that you love you.
Take care dear one, you are in my thoughts,
Carrie

Im not even sure why all I'm mad at myself. It would be too stupid to talk about anyway. I'm just tired of being me. Literally tired. Thanks guys for being there to encourage.

[SylverFlames]

*hugs* (if ok)
It happens sometimes. You'll pull out of it, don't stop taking your meds though, that generally leads to bad things. I have faith that you'll feel better soon.

[Zenobia]

It isn't stupid to talk about. Feeling stupid about these feelings is just another manisfestation of low self worth. It comes part and parcel to it all. Talk to us about it. We know the frustration and we know it isn't stupid at all. Just another thing to work through.
with love,
Carrie