i just grabbed the razor and slid it quickly accross my skin. oops! i just remembered i wasnt gonna cut anymore. oh well, too late...pain feels so good.

[SweetCrusader]

We all slip-up when we had planned on quitting. You can always try quitting again.

Best of luck to you!!!

[itsjustme111]

We all oopsie. Its okay, just like Angela said.

Hope that you are feeling alright. One day at a time. Well, one minute at a time.

We are here for you.

Justy

help.



there, i said it.

[silver_queen]

I'm sorry ((((((((((cotton))))))))))))..

In what way are you needing help at the moment?

ty, silver. just want to get away from myself. i need help like 24 hour supervision.

feeling better after hangin out in chat and taking meds i should have taken a week ago.

[Rapunzel]

I'm glad that hanging out in chat and taking meds has got you feeling better. And thanks for asking for help. I wish that we were able to give you enough help here. And I know, it can make a difference, but you need 3D help too. Can you tell us anything about what resources you have? Are you in therapy? Do you have family or friends nearby? How could we help you to build your resources?

Reaching out here is great if you are getting enough help this way. If you still don't feel safe though, I hope that you are able to go to the ER, call your T, call a hotline, or get a friend or loved one to stay with you.

As you're comfortable, I hope you will tell us more about yourself, and what's going on to have you feeling bad like this.

(((((((((hugs))))))))))) if you want them,

Rapunzel

oops again.
i cut the word help into my ankle... stupid. i know i know.. SI is a cry for help. i dont think my ankle could make that any more obvious.

[Rapunzel]

How can we help you? I'm sorry that you hurt like this.

just by being there i guess... by posting your own stuff and replying to mine... it really does help. everyday i think about coming online and reading the replies and posting and even just having this website on my screen. i guess this is the only link to other people who understand. so, basically you dont need to do anything to help. this website is the most (the only) therapy ive ever had.

[Rapunzel]

That we can do. Just keep on coming, and we'll keep posting. It's good to know that it helps you, and I know it does, since it was a huge relief for me to find people who understand too. We don't want to encourage you to keep hurting yourself though, and I'm a little concerned about that. As an experiment, I wonder if you would try telling us you need some attention before it gets to the point where you have already hurt yourself? I'm just afraid if you keep posting about your oopses, and then getting responses to that, that it might encourage you to do it more, and although we understand, it still isn't the best way to deal with your feelings.

Is therapy an option for you? I highly encourage you to give it a try. There's more behind resorting to this coping method than almost anyone can process and get worked out on our own, and there is so much more to get out of life. You're accepted here no matter what, ok?

((((((hugs)))))))

thank u rapunzel.

i never use SI to get attention though... even though i wrote the word help on my ankle, i know nobody can see it. it is just a way for me to feel pain. i need to feel the pain... and i just am pretty open in my posts and want to tell the world whats going on.
the only positive reinforcement for this that i get is the satisfaction of hurting and then watching it heal.

[SpazKatt]

I know what you mean *hug*

[kybodyguard]

I Know This Sounds Harsh But Stop Cutting Yourself.Seek The Rainbow From Lifes Storms.It Has Energy And Warmth And Feels Much Better Than Pain.

the rainbow?... you mean the skittles rainbow?