Why is it so addicting?...could trig

I recently started cutting....well not really...I prefer using a safety pin...I don't know what you'd call it.....Oh well that is not the point. I crave it constantly. I don't understand why it is so addicting. It's almost all I think about. Just wondering if anyone knows why.

ickydog.. This may be the way that you are dealing with painful or confusing emotions. Please talk to your T about it. The good thing is that you just started and the earlier you talk about it the easier it will be to change this behavior. Maybe you can use this experience as a tool to spot the reasons why you are so upset inside. Puts some words to the pain.

It's still self-injury. It's addictive feeling because it is a way you cope with overwhelming feelings, events, people etc. Scratching is often a start to this. Please try and find another way to cope, to escape, to handle your problems. A T can help immediately, if you tell them you want another way to cope.((icky)))

Thank you guys. I guess I'll talk to my T. I have an appointment with her Wednesday. It's nice knowing that I can tell you guys about these things. I haven't told anyone else about this problem.... even my best friend. I just don't want anyone else to abandon me. Thanks for sticking by me.

I think it might be to the endorphins that occur when you cut?

I'm not sure why it is addicting for others. For me, it helped keep me in reality, and so in a way, it eased the emotional pain. It was the only thing that would help at the time, so that is why I kept doing it.

Obsidian

Spaz hit the nail on the head. When I was in therapy in the Navy, my therapist told me that many people in emotional pain find relief from SI because of the chemicals released from the body... instant high. Instant relief. That's why it's addicting. Many like me let this behavior get out of hand... and many like me fight the urge to SI every day. Please talk to the doc soon to help you with this. There is a better way and I used to know it. You can find it too. Thoughts, prayers, and hugs to you if wanted.

Ryan