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This is a hard post to make. Recently I have been dealing with the feelings of being bisexual. I was involved with another female, and in all honesty I love her, but now she has moved on to someone else. I can not explain the hurt I feel. Here I thought maybe just maybe I was really ready to admit to myself and my family that yeah I do have feelings for another female, but not sure what Im feeling now. I have in the past had relationships with females, but usually only turn towards them when I am hurting so much in side or wanting comfort. Well so my therapist has told me. Not sure what I am trying to say here, just know that there is nothing like the love of a female, the gentleness, feelings so kind, understanding. But then why are they the most intense relationships too?
Feeling like I need to prove my love for her, and I was not able to do that so she left. No I have not come out, well only to my therapist, and a close friend - but this person wanted me to tell everyone on her terms, and if I could not do that well then it meant I really didn't love her. Feel like I was given an one option and one option only, may have lost out on a wonderful love. How do I get through the pain of a broken heart? Islander |
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Time is the Healer of all Broken Hearts -
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I can totally empathise
I was in a relationship with a guy for 2.5 years, and we lived together most of that time too - so it was serious. I've only ever been with guys. Then he suddenly became very absorbed in work and was never there for me; not physically nor emotionally. Suddenly I started falling for another woman at work. I'd never had feelings for another woman, but I was just hurting so much inside and wanted someone to love me, hold me... We ended up having an affair, my bf found out, I left him for her and eventually was left with nothing. This was when I hit such a bad depression I was hospitalised. A month later I tried to OD and landed back in hospital. I was prepared to give up everything for her, and instead got nothing. Not to say to good times weren't great. I truely believe we loved each other. It was just too intense. She suffered from Bipolar and it turns out I do too, even though I have only recently been diagnosed, which is after we were together. When our relationship ended I couldn't find a reason to exist. I did not believe I'd ever find that kind of bond again (And I might not). But I think I've managed to work through all of this. (Though at times I have to ask myself if I've just locked the feelings away, or if I've really addressed them) I'm back with my boyfriend I initially left. I do believe I may be bisexual. At the same time I've never been attracted to any other woman. Our relationship started as a friendship, and then we got closer. It did not start from a sexual attraction. Which is what makes my situation very hard for me to understand. I'm here for you - you are welcome to PM me if you feel more comfortable. I don't have the answers, cos I don't know myself. But I have been through these feelings and questions |
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If someone reading this wants to PM me about this topic and my story as above, pls feel free. I sometimes think I need to talk about it too
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Thank you for the reply,
I am going to send you a pm, because you may really understand what it feels like to have questions, and not sure where to turn. Islander |
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Islander - I do empathise, and hopefully on most levels I can understand too.
I'm only 24, but think I've been through my fair share of emotional highs and lows, and by no means a typical 24 year old. |
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