Confusion

Hi. I need to talk about this and I don't think the other forum that I normally post in would be an appropriate place. I have never been in a real relationship in my entire life. There have been a few times but nothing real. I want to be intimately close with someone both emotionally and physically, but I am scared to death of physical intimacy. I have DID and that just severely complicates this. Some of the others here like being sexual and enjoy it emensly. But when they do I can feel it in my body and it freaks me out. It freaks me out even more that the teens here are heterosexual and I am not. They are very hormonal teens and they are very sexually active but only with each other inside. But still I can feel it all the time and it freaks me out. I am not sure how to get myself ok with this and I don't even know if I can. I am very confused about it all. I want physical intimacy but just the thought of it really freaks me out. How can that even be possible. I am just really confused and I wish I knew how to help myself but I don't. If anyone has any ideas, please let me know. Thanks.

Cris

I'm so sorry to hear you're battling. Please explain your background a bit more (age, gender..)

I think you just need to be patient. Get to know your body and physical desires alone first. There's no rush to be physically intimate. And there are definitely people out there that will share your sentiments on the issue. I feel there needs to be trust and love in a relationship before considering to get physically intimate; this is especially true if it is your first time with another person.

In the mean time, spend time getting to know your body alone - there's no rush.
Look after yourself!