Hello Everyone.

I just wanted to say that I am actually very happy with my life, but have a personal matter I have been dealing with and I guess I just want people to talk to...
I am 28 years old, and I have a good full time job working on airplanes. I work in a maintenance hanger for a fairly large Canadian aircraft company, and I actaully enjoy it for the most part.
I love working on my Project Chevrolet Nova, so I guess I can say I'm quite the gearhead.
I am also happily dating a wonderful woman who I'd do anything for... but this is where my issue comes into play...

... I've dated this girl for just over 10 months, and we both seem to love eachother alot... Seems I can talk to her about just about anything, but I just can't work up the nerve to tell her the one big secret I have been hiding for as long as I remember.
I am what would be considered a DL or Diaper Lover...
This has been a battle I have been fighting amongst myself for years...
Now to give you a better understanding of who I am on the aspect of Diapers, I don't regress "to a simpler time," nor do I actually use diapers for their intended purposes.
This is why I have this fear that there's something wrong me... I have no need for adult diapers... But it's a fetish. I do get a sexual stimulant at the idea of wearing and seeing adult women wearing... I am not into age play, but I have to admit that when I do wear, I am at ease if I become stressed, and that it does help me sleep.
I don't understand why I have this fetish, but I have come to the realization that this is just a part of me, whether I like it or not...
I've only dated two other girls before the one I'm seeing now.
The first girl I dated, We dated for 6 years, but the moment I finally confessed of my DL side, she lost all interest in me, and left me for another man.
The second girl I told her about a month into dating, and she seemed very supportive of this side of me, but suddenly wanted to stop seeing me.

Now with the girl I'm dating now, she just seems to complete me... She's great, loving, etc.
She's got a good job as a High School teacher, and a Dance Line coach, and she just seems to love me just as much as I do her.

But recently, my desires have been very strong... to the point I'm dying to tell her, but I'm worried sick that I will freak her out, and she will leave me.
We do not life together, so I have been wearing privately, but I just feel that she needs to know...

I don't really know what I'm looking for within this forum, but I would like to know your thoughts, and maybe some suggestions.
Am I strange and need to seek counseling?
Should I risk dooming a relationship that I'm loving every moment of by tell her my darkest secret, and if I do, how should I tell her without freaking her out?
I'm really at a loss here, because I feel it's wrong to keep this from her, because she has every right to know everything about me if we are to ever start considering a future together... but fear has me dead cold in the water.

To Psych Central RMDL75, I personally don't think you need therapy, It's just a kink. Maybe you should Google Dan Savage, he writes a column called Savage Love and you can email him questions about any kind of kink, sexual type thing you want. He usually tells people to lay their kinks on the table fairly early into to the relationship. I personally think if she's the girl for you she won't be the least bit bothered by this. I don't know how many more replies you'll get here, but I thought I'd give you my two cents. I wish you good luck on telling your girl friend.

Thanks Wolf... I understand that I should let her know sooner than later, but I have a huge fear to overcome... and I know that time heals all wounds, and I can move on and be ok for the most part, but I have no desire to watch such a great relationship fall apart because of diapers...

I know this may not be a very good conversation piece... and I posted this twice, once in the Relationship thread, because I forgot that since I'm new, my posts dont show up right away... for some reason I thought it didn't take... lol
I apologize for that.

This is a very supportive site, hope you enjoy it

Welcome, first and formost. Hope you enjoy this site and find it helpful. I know I do.

Now on to the issue. I agree w/ wolf, if she is the one she will not care. I don't think it is threrpy worthy. It is a fetish and that means it falls outside of the norm. So that is ok. I think u definiately need to tell her.

Something along the lines of..... I have a fetish that brings me comfort when I need it, and brings me sexual excitement when needed. It is something I like to do in private, I am trusting this to you because I love you, you are special and so on and so forth. If you explained why it is important to you and what it means to you first then she may hear that and not be so caught up on the "It's DL" If you reassure her in the beginning how you feel about her that also may help her take your feelings into consideration.

You have to tell her. You can't wait till your married or what ever to tell her this. Who knows she may not mind and might be interested in knowing more about DL.

Good luck. Keep us informed. and welcome aboard.

I know I need to tell her, but I have to bring it up at the right time. I need to get over the fear of rejection, aswell.