I love diapers

I know. I am 16. I adore them. I don't wear them much cause I'm scared to buy them,& scared of my parents finding out. I don't know where to hide them.

I can't stop obsessing about them. I love the feeling of wearing them. I love using them,& having a full diaper.

I don't know why I like it though.& I really want to use then:

I believe that is called infantilism. (or something like that).

You may want to research it. Sounds like you will need some professional help. Good luck to you.

I guess it depends upon the reason for wearing them.

You're what I'd consider a "diaper lover".

It's a fetish, and it's part of the ABDL scene. ABDL meaning Adult Baby/Diaper Lover.

I wish I could I wear diapers again. I miss the feeling of them being snug around my hips, and having that warm feeling after using them.

I would also like someone to wrap me up in a blanket and cuddle with me as if I were a baby.

You're secret is safe here my friend!

I love the feeling of them.& going to bathroom in them(I love the warmness)

I first read your post yesterday, Miud & wanted to reply. I felt like I had something to say about it. But I needed time to think it through. Earlier today it dawned on me. I'm an older person now (male). But I've been transgendered all of my life. In other words, I always felt like I should have been / wanted to be female. I learned very early in life that this was something I must never talk about. And so I kept it a closely guarded secret.

I was an only child & as I was entering my teenage years my parents & I moved out into a rural area. So I was pretty much stranded except for the time I spent in school. Still, over time, I managed to cobble together a small collection of female clothing & accessories. I hid them in the back of a file drawer in my desk in my bedroom. I always worried that they'd be found. (They weren't.) But I was powerless to get rid of them.

One of the things I believe I share, with most other trans persons is experience with hiding. We hide from our parents & friends when we're young, from friends & co-workers as adults, as well as from spouses if we marry. We become master hiders. Over the years I have hidden so much that, as I've gotten older, I have found that I still HAVE to hide... even if I wouldn't have to... if that makes any sense. If I don't have a few secrets tucked in my hip pocket, so to speak, I just don't feel right. It has become a compulsion.

As other repliers here have said, there's nothing wrong with your love of wearing diapers. I have heard of adults, in fact, who hire nannies to take care of them as if they were babies. So try not to feel guilty or shameful about this. My concern for you is with regard to your need to hide this from your parents & others in your life. I certainly understand that wearing diapers is not something you want to broadcast. At the same time, I'd like to just offer a gentle caution that hiding can itself become a compulsion.

I don't recall if you said whether or not you see a therapist. I would think that this would be a very good idea. This is someone with whom you might be able to share your feelings about loving diapers. And having the opportunity to share this with someone may help you to feel okay with it while still not disclosing it to your parents, etc. By the way, feel free to Personal Message me should you want to chat about this further.

Hello Miud,

I can relate to your situation. The difference being that while I was a teenager instead of only wearing diapers I was into the full baby thing. (AB/Adult Baby). Anyway, I kept it secret from my parents until I was 20 years old. My parents were less than understanding. My dad found a diaper and yelled 'I am NOT raising another F**ing baby!** while my mom threatened "If I find any more diapers I am going to throw them on the front lawn and tell everyone their yours". Thankfully my mom never made good on her threat. But flash forward 17 years (I'm 33 now) my dad could care less and my mom is fine with it these days.

On the subject of finding a therapist, it can be helpful to have a therapist to talk to about it. Just be up front explaining that your a DL (Diaper Lover) and let them know that either you want you help stopping, or that your fine with it and don't want to change that part of yourself. In my case, I am fine being a AB, so I explained I didn't want to stop being AB. But of course had to explain what it was for the therapist. Many therapists have never heard of it. So I had to explain what it's about and what it is for me. They later did research on it themselves. If that first therapist doesn't understand or you don't feel you can work with, feel free to request a different therapist until you find one you can work with and trust. In the end, you are by far not the only one into this. I have AB/DL members from all over the world on my site. Of all the things to be into, enjoying wearing a diaper or role playing as a baby is harmless. I wish you the best.

-Stanley

Yeah...enjoying diapers is definitely not for everyone. In fact, it is something that few people enjoy. But it does not mean there is something wrong with you. However, I can see why you are worried about your mom finding out. I can't really offer anything but my support. I hope you are able to find ways to satisfy your needs without jeopardizing your relationships while you are still living at home.

I can speak from experience about this topic, although I've never been turned on by diapers — I'm old enough so that I can have bad dreams about having to wear them, and I don't want to tempt fate by wearing them before I need to. But I do use feminine incontinence pads frequently, and my underwear, mainly panties, needs to be washed very often!

I've been enjoying my fetishes — urophilia and coprophilia — since I was about 12 or 13, and I'm now 71. And, in almost all that time, I struggled against feelings of inferiority and the "knowledge" that I was a freak. I seriously believed, in all the years before the internet arrived, that I was unique in all the world.

Finally, about five years ago, I had the courage to bring up the topic of my fetishes with a psychologist. She told me that my fetishes are not all that unusual, and gave me a big hug at the end of the session. Another psychologist, a few months later, told me to go ahead and enjoy my fetishes as often as I wanted, wherever I wanted, within reason, of course: the only important considerations were my own feelings about my fetishes, and whether I was forcing or coercing anyone else into joining me (which I don't do). My wife was with me for that last session, and fully agreed with the psychologist.

My wife now knows about my fetishes, and accommodates me. She knows that if I start the washing machine, I've been enjoying myself, and it's of no concern to her. She only wants me to be content with everything in my life, including my sexuality.

By the time a person begins "practising" a fetish, it's become hard wired into their personality, and nothing short of actual or chemical castration will prevent a person from continuing with it. The challenge is learning to live with it. As handicaps go, using diapers is something a lot of truly handicapped people would gladly trade for.

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Hello,

You don't have to find it sexual for it to be hard wired. It was hard wired in my head without it being sexual. I found wearing them made me feel safe and calm. And what started as just diapers is today a full nursery with all the goodies like bottles, pacifiers, onesies, sleepers, crib, high chair, playpen ect. With all the props I can really get into my role of feeling like a 2 year old and for a while at least I can forget about my adult life's trouble. The bottom line is, if your not being forced to do it, and your not hurting yourself or others doing it, then by all means enjoy. I never heard of anyone causing any trouble because they liked watching cartoons in a diaper and t-shirt. Or because they strapped on a diaper before bed just for the enjoyment of wearing diapers to bed. So enjoy. And know your not alone. A simple search online for "Adult Babies" (ones who wear diapers and like being a baby too) or "Diaper Lovers" (people who just enjoy the diaper but not anything else baby) will reveal a huge community of us out there and SO many websites to make new friends on.

-Stanley