[Yismymindblank12]

I don't mean to come off as specifically females, but I'll include something I don't know the answer to.

I really like females who are edgy, rough ( I mean not only stick up for themselves, but no holds barred on their emotions on honest opinions. Girls who like the fight and the the toughness.) I mean I'm tough too, but I don't know why I like to be roughed up a lot. Not just sexually but emotionally for pleasure where sometimes it can borderline or has become abuse.

I'm not sad, by this, just don't know why like the females who aren't afraid to be themselves and put their individuality out there and shove other people or else they'll snap. Not that they would actually do it to break civility mostly, I've dated a few who have been crazy and will fight anyone, but I dated very timid girls. I don't like it like it's boring and it makes me feel bad dating them. Not that they are bad people, it's just they bore me quickly and even though I'd like to rather be friends with them. I'd never want to have sex and date them in a long term relationship, because I don't want to break their heart. I've only dated one girl like that, it ended out pretty well, because she secretly had a very crazy seductive side to her that was like a surprise treat. I didn't really want or expect it, sometimes it was too much, but I'd have the best friendship with her before.

I like women who go crazy get mad, I like women who try to show everyone to back off because she'll cut everyone up. Not that I'd like to see her in pain or suffering, because that's not fun at all, but I find it sexy for me to understand them. Like douse their flames for me, and everyone go nuts.

It's not that I want something from them other than my intent of a relationship if I did do meet people like that, but also I do like very quiet introverted overly cutesy type of bubbly personality girls too.

I have a mix, I get turned off to negative attitudes like most people, and find if she isn't that funny to me and I don't want to hear her talk because she's not good at it. I can't do it, but that's not happened much like once.

I've had some good luck..

I did come out as bi, so with guys. I like what many preteen girls like, except not one direction. I guess as much as a 15 year old girls like in grown guys. I guess the chiseled face, blue eyes like mine or dark brown sometimes green. Muscles, and I think personality I'm not so picky, because I have so many guy friends I'm around a lot already I've been around more recently. I find it much easier to click with a guy, but at the same time if it was a relationship. I haven't gotten that far yet. I am learning more about this slowly. I am no rush to figure this side of me out. The one thing is why I decided to be bisexual. It goes hand in hand with me as trans, if I was a woman, thinking about it seriously. I'd let a guy take control of me, but I'd take charge of the females in dominance. I do like it sometimes when women are dominant, but then again depends on who. The fact, I do find men sexually attractive now. I like classy men and classy women, suits dresses ties and fancy clothes suit my taste of not what society wants. It's what I see in public, and I'm like with a girl if I'm with my guy friends yes she's gorgeous and my lesbian bi female friends too. If I'm with certain people who know about my bi side, I'd now tell them about the girls and guys who I say he's cute or like I'd bone him.

It's came up and it's relieving doesn't feel like their is a wall of what I feel segregating.

Overall I made this, because I don't know why I like edgy girls, I know about guys already. I'm not too sure on the petite cutesy girls.

I'm not picky as I say, I know it's been mainly superficial stuff, but if you'd like me to elaborate I'd certainly can. It's very hard to condense it all in one.

I like all sizes of girls I meet generally. If she's got a lot of weight on her, I don't mind, unless symmetry is off and it's a no go. Don't matter on weight symmetry which is the only specific most confusing part about my sexual attraction to females and especially men is so confusing.

I know what I like in females with looks, I like the extremes and I like average a lot too. I don't find one better than the other, more the individual. Guys on the other hand, I can't, I really don't like many guys, but when I do it's definitely there and it's confusing. I think dating a guy be harder for me more than anything, because I am afraid, I think they are attractive one the next no. I don't have that with the girls I've dated, even if they weren't as attractive to others as they were to me, I didn't really care about that.

But getting off track. If anyone has a biological, psychological, or anything that may explain why my sexual attraction is like a adhd child in a lego room please tell me. It never can make up it's mind and I don't know why.

The only thing that distinguishes someone like to really make me heart stop gorgeous male or female. It's extremely rare, but it happens and someone who's like to me, I'll say "oh she's/he's hot. I'm going to talk to him/her to get to know them." Other than that please help me understand this I'm not good at knowing this part of my own body, but definitely understand it from the outside looking in for someone else in general.

the other confusing thing is that, should I ever be in a relationship with someone who I think is so beautiful in my mind or hot guy/girl. Not as in infatuation, I avoid obsessing over that **** and treat them like a human, but should I date people who come off to me as that or am I asking for a bad idea emotionally for myself?

[Yismymindblank12]

Oh and why does the frustration the other person may have in their life and the desire to wanting to share the connection and empathy with the other person, to fantasize about hot steamy sex of something spontaneous coming out of that situation. hot to me?
It wouldn't be an immediate relationship of course, but a start of a friendship whether sex happens later or not.

I guess is it knowing someone on a deeper level with the use of sex, but not actually as the intimacy itself kinda like break the ice kinda thing.

I really don't understand myself. I mean I know a lot about it, but when I try to pinpoint mine and describe it to someone else who knows more about them self than I ever could. It's really awkward for me inside even though they don't see me awkward and they are confused what I mean.

Like I'm so weird with myself on this, I don't understand it. I'd want to know more and I'd rather not be around people who expect me to like something they like, because everyone else likes it because they tried it, but if it's something everyone else hasn't tried and is out of a social norm if I talk about it. People are like "you're weird that you're into that stuff, or to each his own.. o well that's what you're into" that kinda talk is annoying and rude.

I'm not judging you how you have sex, so you shouldn't judge me. I don't care, if you ask about my business I'll tell you someway or another or you'll find out if you keep pestering me about it.

I guess, I'm still left not knowing what am I attracted to the most with personality and looks for men and women. I really want to know what am I supposed to feel if I really think someone is sexy from how they talk with how they look, how they appear on the outside and appear on the inside of the person, and what should I know to feel compared to a normal day of ehh I think's she/he is super hot, but then like 5 minutes, mehhh whatever... or indifferent then someone else to come along and they can't get out of my head.

Can someone help me explain to myself so I don't run into a pattern with more awkward situations, at least a lot less of them just being aware what I really like, because I like so much I don't know what to look for. It's overwhelming.

[SnakeCharmer]

I don't know if this applies to you .... I have known people who get bored easily and have a high need for stimulation of all kinds, but don't have the resources to go out and do really exciting or creative things. They satisfy their need for excitement through emotional drama, fights, chaos, scenes, edgy and wild friends and mixing sex into everything.

Those same needs for excitement and edginess can become part of one's sexual attraction, too.

Many people find some healthy outlets for these urges for excitement through music performance, drama, art, martial arts, rock climbing and other disciplined pursuits that put you right out there on the raw edge, exposing your soul to other people as you learn about yourself in the process.

Maybe you're a highly creative person who hasn't yet found an outlet for those creative impulses so you're substituting chaos in its place. It's confusing and difficult but certainly worth considering.

I wish you the best.

[Yismymindblank12]

I like that, because it makes sense totally. Like it's not me, I'm lonely not around people who are accepting. I am around the chaos instead of being at home alone. I do have plenty of outlets, but the lack of connection is a big one. I do what you described despite my outlets. I just hate the people I'm around, they are too conservative for their own good, and ignorant mean and stubborn. They'd rather you die on drugs left on the street make excuses not knowing what's going on than trying to help you. I mean that's everywhere but here it's like you can't have any connection or you're ****ed.