I am not sure if I am Asexual or Heterosexual

From what I have gleamed, sex is a really gross mechanical affair, and somehow my gut does not want that. It is not aroused.

But truly, I feel a desire to genuinely connect with someone romantically and physically. How, I do not know. I have never been close to anyone this way, even though I would like to.

But many people have told me that the way sex is portrayed in movies and pornography is extremely inaccurate, and I can see that there is no love involved. It is cold hearted mechanical pleasuring.

As such, I have no idea of knowing what real sex is. There is no way to find out, I can't watch pornography - it is simply too cold hearted, and honestly it disturbs the heck out of me. And I can't decide if I want sex or not.

So I'm unsure of whether I'm heterosexual or asexual.

I am a male, and I guess there is a lot of brainwashing going on, but it is so confusing not knowing what real sex is.

Any insight?

Might you be demisexual?

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It will just happen naturally. You will be close to someone that makes you feel like you want to kiss them and hold them. When you do it, your body takes over. Your heart beats faster and you become aroused. It doesn't take much thought. In fact it's an absence of thought. It is sensual.

If you never feel this, perhaps you are asexual.

It is too confusing for me to know if I'm demisexual, honestly.

If it's about the porn, you could watch "pink and white production", they are authentic and with joy and love.

But it's realy common to find porn not arousing. I am sometimes very sexual, but can't watch porn bc I don't like it. (Other times I like it, even if I have no desire to actually have sex)

There are asexuals that say they sometimes feel sexual tensions (Gray asexuality I guess?) , but no desire to act on it. I think they would welcome you. Seeking out to other asexuals might be a good step.

The good news: you don't have to give yourself a label if you don't feel comfortable with it. If you are heteroromantic you can say you are "hetero" if that makes you feel more save.
Second good news: If you think asexuality fits you now, than you have every right to claim that label for you. If you find out that you love sex: enjoy it, adjust your label, and maybe spread awareness for the asexuals under us.

Quit thinking of a label and just live your life. When you meet someone you will know it and it will feel right for you. Life is more than sex it is about trust, honesty, loyalty, unity, sharing, feeling loved, and companionship. Blessings and tc

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You sound exactly like me, though I often find that explicit sex descriptions (books, fanfiction...don't ask, I don't read them often) make me sick to my stomach, and it's never really occurred to me to look at porn. Why would I want to watch that? Back to sex scenes, there's also something really animalistic and...undignified about the whole thing that's just gross to me. Again a kind of "Why would anyone want to do that?"

And yet, I experience attraction, would like to be with someone romantically, and have occasionally wondered about sex with an actual person.

Sound familiar?

Your first paragraph sounds familiar, SOE. Only I've never experienced romantic or physical attraction. I am curious about the 'mechanics' of sex - not the tab A into slot B thing, but more like "So you like a guy.. and maybe he likes you too.. what do you say?" or "So you want to sleep with a guy.. how do you go on about establishing mutual want and deciding to act on it"?
It's the way I'm curious about everything I cannot imagine.