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Hi I decided to join this community for support with an issue I guess I have been repressing for years. I don't know where to begin but if I am going to be completely honest with myself I have struggled with my gender identity and sexuality for as long as I can remember. To make a long story short I guess I am pretty messed up. I am an only child and have held this as a stigma my whole life. My mother wanted to have a girl but I was assigned male at birth. Growing up I was timid and shy and at times I guess I have been slightly in touch with my feminine side. I was bullied a lot at school I guess for being timid. My first sexual experiences were with males unfortunately; one was a baby sitter when I was six or seven and the second was when I played doctor when I was ten with someone I thought was my best friend. During this second incident (doctor) my friend made me play a female which really messed with my head. I always liked females and was attracted to them but was scared or intimidated by them, I didn't loose my virginity until I was 19 but that was the best day of my life because I actually felt like I was a guy. I was married and have children that I love very much. Got divorced and then all those repressed feelings from my childhood hit me; I was lonely depressed and in need of validation and intimacy. I was never an online person but I guess in my loneliness I started chatting online and noticed I was getting more male responses then female....what is wrong with me? Is this even normal or acceptable?
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((((( Veeda )))))
If you feel more attracted to and comfortable with one sex than another, then don't hold yourself back from having safe tests. Like: talking with another person about whatever; meeting them in safe places & enjoying one another's company; that sort of thing... In the end, our children just want us to be happy and healthy. Same things that we want for them! Right? ![]() Imo, *that's* what matters. For me, nothing is more important than what my girls think. What anyone else in my family thinks: pfft! LOL You do what you think is right for you. Best wishes to you!
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Thank you for your response
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