I wake up sobbing

I keep having horrible dreams about my son. The 2 that I had last night both had me crying in my sleep, then I wake up I get constant flashbacks of the dreams, last night I had the flashbacks so bad that I was literally slamming my head against the wall just to bring myself back and stop them, I feel like I am really losing my mind. :,,(

Do you have a therapist you can discuss this with? I feel for you, sounds extremely difficult..

It sounds like your dreams are triggering ptsd (I cheated and looked at your profile ;P). You may want to ask your dr. about getting on a sleep aid (NOT AMBIEN, it'll only make things worse for your flashbacks) to keep you in a deeper sleep and dream less. In the mean time you can always bring the dreams here and we can prod at them and pick them apart If you're uncomfortable putting them up for everyone to see I'll volunteer to look them over privately.

I had nightmares like that before.
they are very distressing, especially if you are dreaming terrible things involving your child.

I dont think you are losing your mind.
it could be stress, or a developmental stage the child is going thru that (for example) makes you fear losing him, which manifests into a crazy nightmare.

If you have PTSD, the dreams may seem like they are about your child, when really they are just a result of the PTSD.

And i know PTSD can be very hard to deal with.

You can try an antidepressant or something.
sometimes watching news can trigger nightmares.

Maybe try watching something very calm and pleasant before bed each night.
and set up a comforting bedtime routine.

Another thing to consider is if your child reminds you of yourself at the time of the ptsd trauma. Your child reminds you of yourself as a child so you dream of the child in frightening dreams but you're really facing yourself and your own traumas via your subconscious.

Hi guys, thank you for the kind words and sorry for the late response. I now have another diagnosis and an explanation as to why I have been having these dreams (when I eventually sleep). Over the past 4 weeks my mood has been getting worse and so has my mental health, and today my partner witnessed me having another major flashback (head slamming against the wall and everything) and tried to stop me but as I was still not as I like to say 'grounded' yet I attacked him too, not wanting to hurt him I just wasn't aware he was real. Anyway he was straight on the phone to the emergency doctor who came out and I explained everything that I can remember and he told me that I am now suffering from Psychotic Major Depression. I am now terrified as I know deep down that it is wrong but I still have huge paranoia about my meds and the doctor told me that he will give me another week then he is going to put me on anti psychotics and if I am still like this then he has no choice but to section me! I don't want that to happen to me, I just want to be better, I don't know what to do as I know that the way that I am thinking at the moment isn't right but I can't control it. (sorry about the essay)

I'm presuming sectioning is putting you in temporary hospitalization for mental health. It sounds like he has a plan. I'd trust him and go with it. The sectioning is probably so that your sleeping activities can be monitored without putting yourself or anyone else in harm's way. That you have the episode documented by the dr. is a GOOD thing. It's a solid confirmation of a deeper, more critical need of help. Typically being hospitalized would be long enough to figure out what helps you get better, stabilize you on said treatment, and get you set up to get back out in the world.

MandaMay and I will be praying for you

(((((((((((((LDH83)))

My heart goes out to you, sounds like a very difficult Psychotic Major Depression.

What did you mean when the doctor said he has no choice but to section you?

Do you have a support system in the midst of all this, supportive people around you?

When you wrote, you know deep down it is wrong, about what?

Was it about the paranoia of meds?

I really care and want to help you at this time

I'm sure others will respond as well

Hi, the doctor means that I will be forced against my will into a secure mental health hospital and that they will force me to take my meds. I really don't want this to happen to me, I know that this thing in my head that is telling me not to trust Doctors or their tablets is wrong but I really can't control it, It's like there are 2 people inside of me, one of which is the responsible one who tries to get help and is desperate to accept it and the other is a very paranoid person who doesn't trust anyone and knows that everyone is going to hurt me or try to manipulate me into taking poisonus tablets. My doctor says that it's the psychosis that is causing this paranoia and 'delusional' thinking. The thing about me knowing deep down that something is wrong is the responsible side of me that is slowly losing the battle.

It's a first step thing. The forced psychiatric thing is to get you on the pills long enough for the psychosis to subside so that you can maintain being medicated. Once you're stable and doing the meds of your own accord, they'll work toward letting you out.