Up all night

Ugh, I just stayed up all night. It is now 8:08 am and I've been up for almost 24 hours. I tend to be a night owl so any time I get an opportunity to not take my meds and stay awake I do. I know it's terrible. It doesn't happen often anymore, but I still make that choice sometimes to stay awake. I guess I'm just a little delirious right now. I don't want to take my sleep meds until tonight since I didn't take last nights dose. Otherwise my sleep schedule may be off. Although that's doubtful since I get rebound insomnia and my meds put me right to sleep.

Being a night owl wouldn't be so bad if I actually felt tired eventually. Then I could just take nap. However, with the rebound insomnia I'm physically awake, but I can tell that my brain and body need rest. I'm eager to get off of this Trazadone eventually and see what my natural sleep cycles are again.

I'm just rambling. I know I should have been more responsible

When have you felt the MOST relaxed?

We shall row the boat together at least.
It's 2am and here I sit. Wanting/needing sleep and yet not even remotely tired.
Good lord do I get tired of people "trying to help" though.
Always the same lines.
"Have you tried melatonin?" "Try herbal tea" or worse the one upping that seems to follow up anytime I mention my insomnia.
There is always that one person that claims you don't know what your talking about and how they have it so much worse.

And these are the things that float around in my head as I sit here wishing I could sleep like a normal people lol
At least having some one to talk to makes it less boring and lonely.

I just moved out a month ago. Until a month ago I couldn't relax for six years because of the situation I was in. With Cptsd I realize I hadn't really ever felt relaxed. Now, that I'm living on my own...I felt the MOST relaxed when I decided to go no contact with my family lol. I'll eventually taper off the Trazadone. While I'm preparing to I've no idea how to sleep naturally. I'll have to do some research.

The most important thing for sleep is to go to bed and wake up at approximately the same time every day. That teaches your body when it is time for sleep.

Lol I feel your pain! What's crazy is that I'm having the same insomnia issue I was having when I was prescribed Trazadone in the first place. I don't want to be med dependent or just constantly changing meds. Worse would be to up the dose. I can take two for 200mg. Tried it ONCE. Could NOT wake up. Slept through my buildings fire alarm...false alarm so that was nice lol. So, up and down I go with 100mg until I'm off of it. We shall see what that brings!

Lol it's like...THIS IS NOT A GAME. Relate to me don't play "who has it worse" lol. I just want to SLEEP. Yeah, I basically spent the entire night in chat. Hopefully, I wasn't a bother. I was silly sleepy so I may have been annoying lol.

I am up most of the time not by choice though sometimes I can not fall asleep or if I do I am awake by 1am then I cannot get back to sleep,I try to fall asleep watching tv but it doesn't work for me so I knit or crochet try to make myself get tired no such luck however one time I fell asleep in my rocker for three hours boy was I ever surprised when I woke up,it can be so annoying not getting the right amount of sleep because there are days when I feel like I am drunk banging into things because I am so exhausted,when I cannot sleep when I am sick it just makes matters worse.

That sounds miserable. I feel your pain too. I'm not sure what to expect when I'm off the Trazadone. I was (and still get sometimes) middle insomnia. I could get to sleep but would wake up about three times a night. Mostly, I could get back to sleep...eventually. So, I'm curious if that's where I'll be again off the meds. I'm trying to get ready for that. If nothing natural helps me to get and stay asleep then I'll at least try having something like knitting or reading to keep me relaxed.

It is just awful when you are up all night and you feel like you want to sleep all day but I don't.I mean I can do about an hour nap in the afternoon maybe less, but at night I am so exhausted and sometimes when I am really tired I have trouble falling asleep. So you knit too. So what do you make? I make afghans slippers ,hats scarves and headbands I give them away every year at Christmas usually to a church.

Ugh, that is miserable. It' funny because I didn't feel that bad before starting Trazadone all those years ago. But ever since being on it it's made the insomnia worse sometimes.

I think knitting is so neat. I tried to learn how to crochet because my mom could, but I found it too difficult. Knitting is easier for me. I'm an extremely casual knitter lol. So far I've made scarves (and rags or short scarves lol). I've just gotten back into it after stopping a few years back.

I am i the no sleep problem at this moment, i feel so anxious, can't sleep at all.when this happens i usually come here it gives me something quiet to do so my husband and son don't wake up. Still i hate the feeling of knowing i won't be able to get on my regular schedule until tomarrow night, if i can pull off not taking a nap tomarrow afternoon

I took Ambien once and only once. Being that I am a little paranoid about pills I took only half a pill about 30 minutes before crawling into bed after a shower.
I was living in an apartment at the time, and my ex husband had our kiddo for the night(Thank god). I remember I was wearing my favorite pajamas. They were fuzzy and purple with little blue moons and stars all over them. And I always double check the doors windows and turn off all the lights except my blacklight (I don't like the dark)
Anyway. So I go to bed.
I wake up laying in my bathtub (not like im taking a bath laying I'm talking sideways with my back against the wall and legs draped out the side) about 3 hours later, completely naked, with the shower curtain wrapped around my leg.
I put on my robe and start looking around for my jammies. Every. Single. Light in the house was on. Front door was unlocked. The dresser in my sons room was emptied and all his clothes were folded on his bed. I'm so glad he wasn't home for this amount of crazy.
I found my underwear in the freezer. Cuz obviously that's a good place for them. My slippers I found in the oven which just happened to be unplugged cuz I had dropped my bookmark and it ended up under it earlier in the day and I forgot to plug back in (Thank goodness)
I looked EVERYWHERE for my jammies they were no where in the apartment.
I stepped out to smoke and saw a neighbor I was kinda friends with. He helped me check the dumpster outside the complex and around my windows (just in case) and he said he hasn't seen me outside at all in the last 3 hours. So long story short. I still have no idea where my favorite jammies ran off to and I sincerely hope I wasn't parading outside in my birthday suit. Lol
But I will never take another sleep aid
It's a one way ticket to naked crazy town and if I'm booking a trip there I would prefer to remember the experience

this is me 99 percent of the time and it sucks

I've sort of gotten used to it now, but finding stuff to do at all hours is strange

Ugh, I'm so sorry to hear that. I don't like when that happens to me either. What I REALLY don't like is with this rebound insomnia I can usually make it until the following night. That's a terrible feeling. It's like my brain can't function correctly when that happens. It's on overdrive or something.

Were you able to get back to your normal schedule?

Haha! WOW! See! I'm just...careful with drugs (or at least learning to be so since I've never been proactive with treatment). There was something else that happened when I took the 200mg of Trazadone, but out of sheer embarrassment I won't mention it here lol .

I like Andrew Weil's book Mind Over Meds. That gave me some insight into sleep aids. I think I'm done with sleep aids too. All these years on them is long enough. I need to know what my normal is again.

Oh! And starting tapering Trazadone a couple of days ago. Ironically, I'm more tired on the tapered dose. Still sleeping 10-12 hours

I can only imagine!

Yeah, not sure what to expect my normal to be with sleep when I'm off this stuff. I'm building a mental list of things I might do...we'll see how that goes lol.