Friendless and Pooped

So I have my little online friends, but I feel very alone IRL. Like I don't know how to be a friend or to have one.

I took a online test about your real age yesterday, which made it worse. I know I am not doing anything in the way of fitness activities, and I am not getting out because I am chronically tired, but it sure didn't help to read that at 58 my biological age is 75. Not that it was surprising, because I feel like I'm 80 many days.

I know what I need to do, but I don't seem to have the energy to do it.

I was a certified fitness instructor at one time and often read about nutrition and lived a healthy lifestyle, so I know what I'm supposed to do to eat right and exercise, and starting with small steps, yadda, yadda.

And I had a reasonably active friendship life, although I've often felt that there's a mysterious "something" missing from my friendships that other people have and I don't -- and that I don't know what it is . . .

So I guess I'm just feeling blue.

Went out and spent too much money at the health food store on miracle elixirs and snake oil, so we'll see if I'm here writing that I'm rejuvenated in a few days.

Sorry Wants2.... I'm not much help especially as I feel much younger than my age in lots of ways Just wanted to give you a hug...... and alas I share in the blueness.....

((((((((((((((( Wants2Fly )))))))))))))))

Thank you for the fast reply, Fuzzy. It helps, really it does, to know someone is "out there" for me.

i don`t understand.....
your biologicall age is 59 or 75?

i must say that i am also a lonely person!
much yonger than you are but still..have online friends. too.

and i wonder...you HAD friends but what you felt was missing there..
maybe after you saw it was missing you felt like "why teh heck should i make friends if i don`t have waht i want"
maybe you should decide what you want in a friend and then try to go out and see.
maybe there wasn`t TRUST? a DEEP relatiohship?
i think that sometimes we need ti feel close for some1 and that he or she will understand us. you know..ppl who are more..like you?

i am strugling with the same issue these days but i think that our reasons may be different....i am in my 20s.

as for teh health thing-well-you know it depends on you
if you really want it you do it if you just "don`t feel like" at the moment..it happenes but NOTHING can resist our will...
NOTHING

certain ppl changed their lives from being a drug addict, a criminal and an alcoholic to a normal person, and then a famust outhor.....you see//
i guess you know the sky is the limmit

huggs
"ladyMCB"

((((((((Wants2Fly))))))))))

Well, I did some stretching exercises and walked on Saturday. I want to do this today, but I'm really not sure that I'll manage it. Weekdays Mon-Thursday are hard, because I get up early, work at 10-hour day and get home late -- and pooped.

Thank you, Jax and LadyM, for the responses. It makes life less lonely.

((((((((((((( Wants2 ))))))))))))))

Maybe keep posting on this thread and we and others can encourage each other to do positive things for ourselves?

Your fuzzy friend

I am really quite proud of myself. I walked 20 minutes on Sunday (even though I didn't want to). Today, I got up a half-hour early (6 a.m.) and did 15 minutes of stetching exercises, first thing, before I could even think about it.

As much as I don't want to exercise, I am tired of beating myself up for not doing it and feeling guilty. That's no good either. At least this way, I get to feel healthy.

Also seems that my megadoses of Vitamin B complex and small doses of DHEA may be helping.

Thank you for the encouragement, Fuzzybear.

When I read my subject line, I feel a bit embarrassed. What a drama queen I can be! Undoubtedly, I was feeling lonely and tired when I wrote the first post, but I am not friendless. And how very, very ungrateful of me to dismiss my online friends as if the relationships formed here and other places I visit mean nothing.

Friendships here at PC were all that I had to sustain me through a very dark period in 2004 and set me on the path to therapy and helpful pharmceuticals. One online friend even emailed me privately to offer support.

I am sure I could be many friends here, if distance weren't a problem.

Thank you so much for sustaining me through a low spot.