[Kathyanita]

where do they come from and how do they get in your brain if its not a memory then my own sick evil twisted corpse brain is making them and makes me picture decapitating it

[Kathyanita]

it feel like it SHOWS on the outside whats in side and you can see what we see and know we're BAD for having the pictures

[Kathyanita]

coimncidence we found a sword out side in the bushes its real made of metal. very rusty forget when we found it but its in the cellar

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[Kathyanita]

what ? you do? too

kathyanita, that was an error. i don't think you are bad.....xoxo pat

[Kathyanita]

forces in nature and unatural forces as powerfull as gravity whipping around here and inside cutting and suspending under the will of some entity that has us marked . anhihalation - but slowly. its an evil plan that may only be mortal so thats the brilliance of it.
trying ti find the source while waiting for the outcome and the sword- excrutiating wait.

[Kathyanita]

Pat
this way off the wall stuff was not from me who knows you and your goodwill -to you- it just happened to follow your post. . . ( i hope the sword stays in the basement because i ain't cleaning up the mess or opening the door to any cops) this "person" shouldve written in psychosis forum.

kathyanita.......you're good in my book.....always have been and always will be......don't ever worry about posting whatever is there. okay? xoxox pat

[Kathyanita]

this is good for cutting up clozaril into tiny pieses and swooping down on medicines and pulverizing. How did anyone lose their sword? We're keeping it in case its evidence from a crime and has dna on it so better not throw it out. i think someone tossed it out of a car window and thats how it ended up on the bushes but GOD meant for it to land here at OUR door for a reason. maybe we fall on our swaord ? And theres some oriental thing called hari cari(?) but its like its ALIVE down there and means to say something BIG

[jennie]

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where do they come from and how do they get in your brain if its not a memory then my own sick evil twisted corpse brain is making them and makes me picture decapitating it

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Sometimes it's just visual images for a feeling . . . anger, frustration, fear, etc. Sometimes they are memories (either real events you've experienced or something you've read, watched on TV/news/movies, or a story you've heard).

Have you tried art therapy? Maybe do some art representing the images, then hide or destroy the art to "get rid of" the image from your mind?

[Kathyanita]

polishing the sword in the cellar
pictures of things dooone to children peple getting HURT by strangers animals ugly mean pictures peples thougts and no one making sence and what it means . .we cant go away just because they want to ignore US! you vcan not pretend it is not real so we go away and say it never happen

[wanttoheal]

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[Kathyanita]

now i can not find what i saisd before This morning

[Kathyanita]

ask stupid questionss about medicins so we Will Not EVer ask againnn sorryy to be hurt feeling fdor being igored we wont ever ask agan OK

[Kathyanita]

IT IS in the form abot DRUGS and not goind to write all over again Just shutting Up and waiting so no one has to be nice they dont feel like it

[Hope4me2]

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[(JD)]

remember, part of many disorders include mis-filing of information... that's part of why they are called DISorders...

Often pictures come to mind that are not fully the truth, but represent some truth as it was filed.. or misfiled... in your brain. That they seem so awful might be the main intent... hopefully, some things that are filed as so very awful might have been filed when you were much younger, and viewing them now wouldn't be quite so bad. All you have right now is the awful.

(((hugs)))

[Kathyanita]

im sorry- its me but i really dont understand what you mean and i know your trying to say something helpfull that i should be able to relate to. i cant comprehand what you mean to put it to use. that is a problem with comunicating because i know thats also why people dont try to answer a question - and usually ignore the posts because i guess its not in language that is understandable . unless its in the poetry forum then people talk back some nobody canhear me in General or other forums. . . maybe you would not mind trying again to say what you mean here? i hate feeling this lonely because im like an alien from another planet who cant speak the language

[jennie]

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polishing the sword in the cellar
pictures of things dooone to children peple getting HURT by strangers animals ugly mean pictures peples thougts and no one making sence and what it means . .we cant go away just because they want to ignore US! you vcan not pretend it is not real so we go away and say it never happen

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of course you all contribute to the whole. but, the horrible images do not need to be held onto so tightly if they do not help you. that's why i mention trying ART THERAPY to help the images become less shameful for you. take care (((huggs)))

[Kathyanita]

yes jennie i want to make broken things any thing whole should smashed and powder and crushed and grinding like broke bones skelatons plunge and pulverize and shredded snuff out life like a flame make dark black and white = no light no color the same dead under ground /dead above ground

[jennie]

is your avatar picture something you drew?

[Kathyanita]

no its nice i said whatt it is in the poetry form but not here . . .
( ( ( s(e(l(f(s( horror) f)l)e)s) ) ) ) ) )

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[Kathyanita]

????

[CedarS]

I'm confused and lost, what are you asking?