[googley]

I feel like I would just be better off alone for the rest of my life. It's just better off for everyone that way. I should just become a hermit.

[Nupoet64]

(((((Googley)))))

[Sannah]

Why do you say this?

[JustAPixie]

(((((( googley )))))

Just don't forget about me when you become a hermit! I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. Did something happen?

[googley]

I don't know why I feel like I should be a hermit. Often when I get depressed I feel this way. But this time it doesn't feel like it is stemming from the depression. I feel like it is too hard to reach out and connect with people. That everyone else would be better off without me. I wont get hurt if I'm a hermit. It just hurts too much to connect to other people. It feels like it would be better off just not doing it. I feel like I don't deserve to have other people care about me. They should spend their time caring about someone more worthy of their time and energy. Given all this, it would just be better if I was a hermit.

I wont forget about you Pixie.

[Elana05]

dear googley,

I hear ya. I have this fantasy of holing up in a tiny apartment somewhere and taking a vow of silence, hardly ever leaving, except maybe to walk to a small market... I'm totally there today too.

Sending caring thoughts your way.

Truly, I think you bring rays of sunshine to this world.

[JustAPixie]

Don't sell yourself so short googley... I know you don't see your worth in life, but you have worth. You are a beautiful person and deserve to be loved. I know these words mean little to you now, but read them anyway and remember them. Remember me saying to you: You are worth it! You are special!

[dinosaurs]

for what its worth i find it nice seeing you in chat. you're really respectful of people which is a really beautiful trait. that's what i like about chat. i can sit there and make like a hermit if needed, or i can try reaching out. both are ok. next time we're in chat we could make like hermits together. don't believe all the negative self talk. sometimes it just talks rot how dare it! see ya round

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by googley

I feel like it is too hard to reach out and connect with people.

That everyone else would be better off without me.

I wont get hurt if I'm a hermit.

It just hurts too much to connect to other people.

It feels like it would be better off just not doing it.

I feel like I don't deserve to have other people care about me.

These are all common things googley that many people have to work through. It is good that you have become aware of all of these thoughts and feelings so that you can work on them. I hope that these things will eventually make it on your agenda of what you need to talk to your T about. Please keep us posted........

[oceansend]

Dearest and most Lovely Googley,

Would you do me the honor of suspending this consideration of hermitage for such a time so as I might get to know you just a little bit better?
I am only offered just a very small glimpse into who you are, Googley. And be that as it may, I am forced to make an (admittedly) hasty, however all the same, educated generalization (based on the materials available), as to the kind of person that you are.

So I will simply start with what I therefore now know to be true about Googley:
*She has a great many friends who support and appreciate her, and for whom she has shown great love and care for.
*She has twenty pages of posts that she has written to others in the forum, for which they have thanked her for.
*She once started a thread about ''accomplishments'' to inspire herself and others.
*She has consistently demonstrated acts of selfless compassion and empathy for others in great grief and peril.
*She has been hurt immensely, and sadly so, even by those who should have been her greatest (and even earliest) source assured love and protection.
*She struggles severely to connect with others, and is so acutely afraid of being hurt.
*She has fought through trials of unfathomable measures, and exersized a grace of perseverance that has inspired me deeply.
*And she has given more hugs to others in need on this forum, than I ever dare attempt to count.

I hereby find it agreeable to make the following conclusions about Googley:
*She is kind without hesitation, gracious and compassionate.
*She is infinitely worthy of all the love and happiness, friendship, kindness and compassion this world has to offer, (though has previously been denied to her and made her feel so wrongfully unworthy.)
*She is intelligent and courageous; and brave with a sort of unconventional and unique brand of enthusiasm that one might at first easily miss, though from a closer look, proves to be a powerhouse of strength, and an inspiration that I myself, am not destined to soon forget.

So I am left with only this, precious and unique Googley: We would in no way be better off without you. And sweet girl, you are so very much deserving. So so very much deserving indeed.
Your mood today says that you are feeling 'lonely'. Forgive me if I'm wrong, but that little cartoon face on the 'lonely' icon does in fact appear quite sad; quite hurt, in fact. Do you truly believe that you would not be hurt if you were a hermit?
It seems really lonely to me by definition, and lonely is in fact proving to be of close (if not identical) relation to hurt.
And even if I'm wrong, and you wouldn't be hurt being a lonely hermit; I think we would.
Society needs it's precious and unique treasures like you.
We really do.

Thank you for being you, Googley! A beautiful and shining star!

Lovingly Sincere,
Oceansend

[googley]

Originally Posted by Sannah

These are all common things googley that many people have to work through. It is good that you have become aware of all of these thoughts and feelings so that you can work on them. I hope that these things will eventually make it on your agenda of what you need to talk to your T about. Please keep us posted........

We are working on the abuse stuff in T right now.Which is probably why all these feelings are coming up. I think they are going to come up next week. Sometimes I end up posting here and then they make there way into T shortly there after.

[googley]

Originally Posted by oceansend

Dearest and most Lovely Googley,

Would you do me the honor of suspending this consideration of hermitage for such a time so as I might get to know you just a little bit better?
I am only offered just a very small glimpse into who you are, Googley. And be that as it may, I am forced to make an (admittedly) hasty, however all the same, educated generalization (based on the materials available), as to the kind of person that you are.

So I will simply start with what I therefore now know to be true about Googley:
*She has a great many friends who support and appreciate her, and for whom she has shown great love and care for.
*She has twenty pages of posts that she has written to others in the forum, for which they have thanked her for.
*She once started a thread about ''accomplishments'' to inspire herself and others.
*She has consistently demonstrated acts of selfless compassion and empathy for others in great grief and peril.
*She has been hurt immensely, and sadly so, even by those who should have been her greatest (and even earliest) source assured love and protection.
*She struggles severely to connect with others, and is so acutely afraid of being hurt.
*She has fought through trials of unfathomable measures, and exersized a grace of perseverance that has inspired me deeply.
*And she has given more hugs to others in need on this forum, than I ever dare attempt to count.

I hereby find it agreeable to make the following conclusions about Googley:
*She is kind without hesitation, gracious and compassionate.
*She is infinitely worthy of all the love and happiness, friendship, kindness and compassion this world has to offer, (though has previously been denied to her and made her feel so wrongfully unworthy.)
*She is intelligent and courageous; and brave with a sort of unconventional and unique brand of enthusiasm that one might at first easily miss, though from a closer look, proves to be a powerhouse of strength, and an inspiration that I myself, am not destined to soon forget.

So I am left with only this, precious and unique Googley: We would in no way be better off without you. And sweet girl, you are so very much deserving. So so very much deserving indeed.
Your mood today says that you are feeling 'lonely'. Forgive me if I'm wrong, but that little cartoon face on the 'lonely' icon does in fact appear quite sad; quite hurt, in fact. Do you truly believe that you would not be hurt if you were a hermit?
It seems really lonely to me by definition, and lonely is in fact proving to be of close (if not identical) relation to hurt.
And even if I'm wrong, and you wouldn't be hurt being a lonely hermit; I think we would.
Society needs it's precious and unique treasures like you.
We really do.

Thank you for being you, Googley! A beautiful and shining star!

Lovingly Sincere,
Oceansend

Your post made me cry. It is hard to believe that this is how people see me. Or that someone would care enough to take the time to write out that whole response. But I have it right in front of me to see. So my belief can't be true. I'm going to save your post so that I can go back to it. I think you have said the nicest things that anyone has said to me in a long time. I'm going to try and hang on to it. To remind myself when I need it that people care about me. And people would miss me if I became a hermit. Thank you!

[googley]

Originally Posted by dinosaurs

for what its worth i find it nice seeing you in chat. you're really respectful of people which is a really beautiful trait. that's what i like about chat. i can sit there and make like a hermit if needed, or i can try reaching out. both are ok. next time we're in chat we could make like hermits together. don't believe all the negative self talk. sometimes it just talks rot how dare it! see ya round

I like seeing you in chat too Dino. Thanks.

[Hunny]

Googley, can you print out what Oceansend wrote about and for you. I simply think it is so true and if you hang it somewhere, in a place with a lovely frame or just on the bathroom wall it will be such a good reinforcement for you. Can you take it to show to your T too?

[Gus1234U]

wow, oceansend,, you put me to shame, for the failure to see the true nature of Googley!! i hope more people see this, and we can even have some special Googley time, with only a few gentle people (my references aren't the best, but i do try). No one who cares so much for others should be feeling this way about themself~! so Googley, give us, and yourself, another chance.. opening up in Posts has been a great way to pull down this wall,,,, sincerely~! Gus

[Oceanwave]

Originally Posted by googley

I feel like I would just be better off alone for the rest of my life. It's just better off for everyone that way. I should just become a hermit.

Googley! I want to do the same! Can I be a hermit with you?

[Hunny]

(((( Oceanwave ))))

If only the affirmative words were all it took...

but we can dream...

Originally Posted by Oceanwave

Googley! I want to do the same! Can I be a hermit with you?

[oceansend]

Originally Posted by googley

Your post made me cry. It is hard to believe that this is how people see me. Or that someone would care enough to take the time to write out that whole response. But I have it right in front of me to see. So my belief can't be true. I'm going to save your post so that I can go back to it. I think you have said the nicest things that anyone has said to me in a long time. I'm going to try and hang on to it. To remind myself when I need it that people care about me. And people would miss me if I became a hermit. Thank you!

You are so very welcome, most lovely Googley!
And so very accurate too-- your previous beliefs of 'worthlessness' as you phrased them, are indeed most fallacious! And what I wrote (though only a very small insight) wasn't only just how you are seen by others, but more importantly, they are the evidentiary supported truths for the ways in which you conduct yourself as the person that you are, which has proven itself to being that of someone who is so very kind and loving, and of such a worthwhile and worthy caliber.
And I hope you will hang on to these truths about yourself, and that you will continue to explore and learn about all the even greater and even more amazing unique particularities you have that I haven't even been able to touch upon). And moreover, I hope that you will believe them and know them for the indisputable verity they possess. I hope you will know them and love them, as I hope and trust for you to know and love yourself the way you need and so deserve to be known and loved by yourself.
The pleasure was all mine to learn about such a remarkable person
Yours,
Oceansend

[suzzie]

(((((googley))))) thinking of you.

[Fuzzybear]

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