just really realized was in a emotionally abusive relationship

i am in a seriously emotionally abusive relationship and just *really* realized it...i have no energy, am depressed...i am just now realizing his role in my depression, amazingly. how abusers can be so good at abusing without you realizing how detrimental their behavior is. i could care less whether i live or die. i would actually rather die. i have no energy to do the necessary things i must do. god...what will happen to me. he also humiliates me and makes it seem like i'm the problem.

i am scared of what will happen to me! i threatened to leave and now have no energy to do so. i am scared the stress is going to destroy me.

he just came and went off on me again. i'm scared. i have a headache. i'm seriously in love with him. i thought i was...oh god. help. thanks..

anon

Welcome to psych central. I'm sorry about your circumstances. Do you have an emergency plan for if you are in danger and have to get away fast?

Even if it is just emotional abuse, that is bad enough, and could easily get physical especially once you start seeing it for what it is. I don't mean to scare you, but please take care of yourself. Maybe it would help you to read some of the other stories on this forum. It's easier to see it when it's about somebody else.

You are worth more than the life he is giving you. You deserve to be your own self and not have to live with abuse.

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