Triggers in everyday

a movie came on television
one that my father always watched
why does this world want to rub salt into the wounds
i know i will never forget what happened
but why am i not able to just get through each day
i just want to make it the day through
without completely losing the plot
losing control and falling down
cos sometimes i just cant get back up
and i hate him
i hate him for everything he did
for everything hes made of me
i wonder if he looks at me know
is he proud

i hate triggers
innocent things turned evil

I know it is soooo hard. I wish I could say all the triggers go away but I don't think they do. I have two triggers that still get me, but when they happen I immediately realize what it is about and I'm able to let go. So while they are still there, they do not destroy my life.

It will get better in time, but if this is still fresh it will take awhile.

Thinking of you
Tranquility

ty
i wish it was "fresh" but its not
ive been away from it for yrs now
it still hurts so bad
i get constantly reminded of it
and i cant break free

so i am doing this to myself
thats the question now poppin up in my head
like am i just living in this pain just cos underneath i like it
no wait its just cos i know nothing else rite?

No - I don't believe it's because you like it! I think it is because you haven't found your way out.

Have you been in therapy over the years for this? Once you confront something and process it, the triggers should not be as big and looming as they are now.

Also, it could be that they are new triggers - the mind is very weird thing but it will only let you remember as you can handle it (I know, we all think we can't handle it but we can, we are here right?).

Be gentle on yourself and not judgemental and if you aren't in therapy right now or are in therapy and not discussing these things, think about doing it.

Tranquility

i was in therapy for years
im no longer taking meds either
got too sick
and just needed a break from T and never have been able to go back

ty for ur words
ur rite that the mind protects us in that way
will only let us get so far

argh!!!!!!!! - sorry just soooo frustrating

No apologies necessary! When you are ready, you will go back. (((((HUGS)))))



Tranquility