Aching since Last Session

I had a very difficult time in sessions with my therapist last week. She confronted me about saying that i wasnt sexually abused. I just want that question to melt away, so I played dumb. She told me that with the signs that I was showing as a kid, if she had known me, she would have called CPS. When she says things like that it weighs on me. Since then I have been so blue. I can't shake it. I don't know what to do to make it go away. I try watching allot of tv, journal a bit at night, but it aches during the day. Any help would be appreciated. Is it that I am thinking about things too much?

I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. That aching may be from the past. It's hard to have someone challenge our beliefs about our pasts. I remember when I first realized that I didn't come from the kind of household I had told myself I did for so many years. I remember aching about that. It was very hard to face the fact that I had been deluding myself about my life for as long as I could remember. I had to redefine everything and it was intense. You may be wrestling with all she said and trying to make sense of it. Try to be gentle with yourself. I think mulling over what she said is appropriate. It sounds like something that needs time to process. Again just try to be gentle with yourself and if you need to call her, do it. Take care of yourself! Annie