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#1
Nov 19, 2007, 02:20 AM
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<font color="red"> Please Read with CAUTION - </font>
> >> >>> >>>> >>>>> >>>>>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> How is one not to HATE when they were abused beyond that of normal sexual abuse? With out going into details that will upset others, make me sick, or get this thread closed I will just use a few words to describe my horror my hell - the source of my HATE (12 years long). <font color="red"> Please Read with CAUTION - </font> > >> >>> >>>> >>>>> >>>>>> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> 1.) Bestiality (dogs) 2.) Three-some (all males) 3.) Object insertion 4.) Family (uncle, step father, cousins) 5.) Medical Sex - with painful experiments 6.) Sodomy (damage done) 7.) Sharing of ME with His Drunk Buddies 8.) Molestation as a baby (under 1 year old) 9.) BDSM (sick) 10.) Rape - Rape and more Rape ................................................................................. So SAD inside. 
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#2
Nov 19, 2007, 08:09 AM
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Rhapsody,
My heart and soul hurt for you. I have no idea what goes on in the mind of the sick and twisted. It is beyond comprehension. The fact that you are able to even mention it is a bravery that I admire. I do not know how a person views a beautiful bundle of love as a sexual plaything. I do not understand what give them the impulse to do horrible, unspeakable, unimaginable things. I think that is why so many of them can get away with it, a "normal" person cannot believe there is someone that evil (I use the word evil rather than sick. I am sick, I am not evil). I am giving that poor abused little girl a mental hug, I imagine she hates touching. I cannot even begin to imagine the horrors you went through and would not even dream of offering advice. Please accept my sympathy for your lost childhood and lack of safety, my admiration for your courage and strength, and prayers of healing and strength.
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#3
Nov 19, 2007, 11:43 AM
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I'm so sorry, rhapsody. You turned out to be an amazing person even through all that. We are here for you if you need.
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#4
Nov 20, 2007, 11:34 AM
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I'm so sorry!
   ((((((((((((( Rhapsody ))))))))))))))
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#5
Nov 20, 2007, 07:30 PM
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I couldn't even begin to fathom the pain involved here....I never once gotten this sort of experienced vibe from you before, through my experience here on PC...now and back then. You seem stronger then I would have ever been.
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#6
Nov 20, 2007, 09:59 PM
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Rhapsody, I really believe not only that we can, but should, feel hatred for these types of horrific attacks. Hate is a self-affirming emotion. It says to ourselves that we deserved better. You deserved better. You deserve today to hate.
be well, mtd |
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#7
Nov 20, 2007, 11:01 PM
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rhapsody, thanks for sharing.... wish there was a way to make it healed....
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#8
Nov 21, 2007, 01:25 AM
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Thanks for the SUPPORT -
I will continue to strive to be a better person than the ones I had in my childhood and I will always do my best to share my pain with others so that they too can heal and know they are NOT alone... as I was. I am feeling SAD as I write this reply (for I then relive my past) - yet happy that I have supporters instead of hurters this time around. Carolyn - |
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#9
Nov 21, 2007, 07:23 PM
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safe ((((hugs))))... and there is so much anger on my part for the people who did this to you...
I am so very sorry... that you went thru this... you are an amazing.. strong... wonderful person... |
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#10
Dec 17, 2007, 06:44 PM
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((((((((((( Rhapsody)))))))))))
I have no words, but you know my story and I'm really sorry you had to endure all that. I share your pain, and I think for the first time I understand how you share mine.
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#11
Dec 17, 2007, 11:53 PM
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(((((Rhapsody))))
May I first say I am so sorry you endured such pain. I understand more than you know. I know you do not know me, but I share your pain and I can say that I have been there. Know you are supported and loved here. Gentle, healing hugs. Please know you are in my thoughts. It took a lot of strength to share, I admire you for that. You are amazing--strong. Keep posting--you are not alone. We walk this path giving each other strength and encouragement. Thank you again for sharing. I care. cami |
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#12
Dec 18, 2007, 04:39 AM
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(((((((((((Rhapsody))))))))))))))) gentle hugs!!!!
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Debbie Sometimes you're frightened and you don't know why.... |
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#13
Dec 18, 2007, 10:29 PM
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</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
camilionwords1truth said: (((((Rhapsody)))) May I first say I am so sorry you endured such pain. I know you do not know me, but I share your pain and I can say that I have been there. Know you are supported and loved here. Gentle, healing hugs. Thank you again for sharing. I care - Cami </div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> Thank you ever so much for caring and for expressing your concern and care to ME....... I guess I really needed to know that some one in this world understands ME (from my side of the fence) - for I am crying with no end in sight after reading through this thread again. I just feel so misunderstood and un-welcomed at a times here on PC when I have the need to talk about my Hate toward Men due to those ten very long years in my life...... for it was not just 1 -2 - 3 or even 4 Men that done those sick sexual acts to me (but many more that joined in for they were invited by another man) - Thank You SANTA - for giving ME an early GIFT this year. |
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#14
Dec 19, 2007, 02:19 AM
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(((((Rhapsody)))))
I am here anytime you ever want to talk-- to listen, to sit with you quietly, or just reach out my hand in friendship. You will never be alone with this again. Feel free to pm me anytime. I really do care and understand. Love to you and gentle hugs. cami |
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#15
Dec 19, 2007, 06:42 PM
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Rhapsody, I am not sure but I would guess that many of us have these hidden secrets and hatred inside. It is not something you need to feel shame for, or responsibility. You were the victim and hatred is a good first step. Talking about it is also. I wish you peace and continue to talk as you need.
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#16
Dec 19, 2007, 07:34 PM
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safe ((((((((((Rhapsody))))))))))))
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#17
Dec 21, 2007, 10:14 AM
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rhap ty u are so brave and so so so strong
hugs to you if u need them and want them u never deserved any of that just like the rest of us who were abused and u are a wonderful person with such creativity that brings magic into words never forget ur importance in this world |
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#18
Dec 21, 2007, 07:37 PM
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There are no words to even describe how terrible that is, i am so sorry it happened to you or anyone else.
There is nothin i or anyone else can say anything to make it better but from the other comments you are obviously an amazing person. I think its amazing you are after everything. Well done carry on! im sorry i really hope there is a chance you will heal. xx
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#19
Dec 22, 2007, 01:48 AM
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Thank YOU very much for your kind words...... and I personally Thank God every day that I emerged from my past with a working heart - a heart full of Mercy.
IMO - >>> God is an Awesome God <<< |
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#20
Dec 22, 2007, 03:39 AM
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Thanks Rhapsody. We can't help it when we are tortured I share some of these with you too. I agree about our Awesome God and I'm very glad you said it. whilst you have hate for men you don't have it for our Creator. He knows and cherishes you and hates what you've been thru too. I'm sorry if I offend anyone for my comments. I don't often express my spiritual beliefs here but I just wanted to agree with you. My heart wishes to send good hopes to you.
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#21
Dec 22, 2007, 08:43 AM
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((((((((Rhapsody))))))))))))))))))
I am so sorry you had to suffer this. This kind of pain "you are right does not go away" You are a very brave person. You are important. THis explains so much. Every child should be protected from this....... No one should suffer that. My thought are with you |
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#22
Dec 22, 2007, 10:35 AM
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(((Rhapsody)))
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"Joy is your sole's knowledge that if you don't get the promotion, keep the relationship, or buy the house, it's because you weren't meant to.You're meant to have something better, something richer, something deeper, Something More." (Sara Ban Breathnach) |
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#23
Dec 22, 2007, 12:00 PM
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Rhapsody, I just got up enough courage to read your post and I want to reply. What I want to say more than anything else is that I think you are a good person and sharing your abuse was a very courageous thing to do. My feelings are a little jumbled up--I think it is because I want to reach out and help you, but I don't know what I could do to make it better. Please know that I care.
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You don't have to fly straight...  ...just keep it between the lines!
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#24
Dec 23, 2007, 04:52 PM
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((((((((rhapsody)))))))
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#25
Dec 23, 2007, 06:15 PM
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of course it is beyond normal. No abuse like this is ever normal.
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