[somebodysomeday]

i start therapy for the first time this monday and im so scared...im not even sure if it is what i need right now...i feel that i am only just able to hold onto my life with the weakest of grip and that if anything throws me i will just fall apart completely...im so scared that bringing it all to the very surface of my heart...wil actually tip me over the edge and kill me..i don't know if i will be able to cope...but at the same time...this moment....depression has taken over me completely and life is a constant battle to fight for...and if i don't give therapy a really good shot...chances are im not going to make it thru anyway....so heres to me...offering my last hope to this world...that i will be able to heal...because to heal...is to regain my life...and to regain my life...is to be happy....to help resolve my depression...to live...to have friends who love me...to feel proud of who i am..to love myself...to love my life...and that is my hope...
my friend is coming to my first therapy session with me.....i owe him the world....for he organized everything..right down to the appointment...as i just became so depressed i wasn't able to focus or think clearly...

[BalishBun]

I wish you the best of luck. Be brave! Oh and I like your username "somebodysomeday"!

congrats on making the step to go to therapy. Remember, you can work to find the right therapist, the right treatment, and the right pace. Do whats best for you.

[mtd]

It's o.k. to be scared. Many of us are when we take that step to get help. And getting help is a courageous step -- well done! And you will heal as long as you continue to find the faith in yourself and in people you can trust to help you heal (like that friend who is encouraging you, and making the appointment for you, and going with you if, for no other reason, so you don't feel alone -- that is so wonderful a gift!) Please remember, always, that you deserve to heal, deserve to regain your life, deserve friendship and love!

I wish you well.

mtd

[somebodysomeday]

today...as much as i am terrified....i can't wait...i don't know what for exactly....but i think it is for things to change...for things to get better...for my life not to be consumed by something so evil....for my poisonous depression to leave my soul.....my friend is amazing and everything he has done means the world to me...ill be 80 and still thinking of him as the friend who helped me save my life....:-)
im hanging onto this hope with all my might..because it is keeping me going...through one of the hardest times...weeks...days of my existence...i have never been so overwhelmed...so overcome..with depression, hate, doubt, worry and negativity....and desperately want this pain to end...or at least decrease in intensity..for it just hurts so much i feel i can not bear it at times...

[jamminpianogirl]

I'm going to see a counselor for the first time this week too. I wouldn't have done it if my boyfriend hadn't promised to go with me at least this one time. I am still afraid as hell, just because I have a real hard time communicating about the suffering I've gone through and go through, and talking to a stranger about it seems terrifying. But I know somebody who knows what's going on with me will be there too, which I'm grateful for. You are doing the right thing. Good luck.

I have been to a counselor twice now - I dont really know that I could say anything that is especially helpful because I am so new at this too but just wanted you to know that you arent alone. It scares the hell out of me!
goodluck to you!
Kaye22

[katlike]

No reason to be scared! It is a reason to rejoice, you are finally getting the much deserved support you need. I have been in therapy for years and it does help if for no other reason than you have a nonjudgemental, supportive person to talk with.
Remember, therapists are a dime a dozen, so be sure to find one that you have trust in. Good luck.

[queenie123]

I started therapy at the end of last year and I'm so glad that I did. Having someone to talk to, who I trust, has opened up a whole new world. Well done for taking the first step, I hope it goes well for you

Queenie

[somebodysomeday]

i felt so awful after the session..i cried all the way to work on the train coz it just brought up so many memories...that wouldnt go away....and now ive been in the bosses office because i think ppl have noticed im just not right....and i dunno what to do bout it....what to say...i want to keep going to T...but after it i just need to go to bed i think....