Who abused you

me too rhapsody

yeah..
When I was writing it down I realised again that I don't even know how many people it must have been in all of these years... just that is.. a lot..
I don't know what it does to you but it sure makes it hard to trust, ANYONE. I always wonder if I can trust them..
Almost expect them to hurt me.
There's been so many already.. why would I trust this person? Why would this person NOT hurt me.. And I guess I try to protect myself, by not allowing myself to try and trust anyone, or let anyone close to me... So it hurts less when they do hurt me.. As I had expected they would anyway.
Ya know.. oh well.

My ex boyfriend abused me physically and emotionally. Now, I'm trying to move on with my life. It's hard, but I'm working on it.

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Blue93 said:
...I try to protect myself, by not allowing myself to try and trust anyone, or let anyone close to me... So it hurts less when they do hurt me..

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EXACTLY ;[
It's harder to trust people nowadays, especially with all that has happened. You just don't know what they can do to you.

And I hear you, bellykiss. Totally. ;[

<font color="purple">Clandestine</font>

((((((hugs to all)))))))

I'm with ya, I know for sure of three of my abusers.
My mom told me that I told her when I was very little that someone did something to me too, but I don't remember doing that, perhaps I was too young at the time. What makes me most angry is she doesn't even know who it was that I said, hello, what mother wouldnt remember who abused her child....ugh.....she was never there, or sould I say available, its no wonder.....
She is still very upset that I am finally getting therapy for my past years of abuse, so shes still not there.....

Making a list is a little difficult, but I'll try

1. Mom - Verbally and physically abusive due to mental illness
2. Grandpa - physically abusive, never sexually touched me, but he did watch me dress when I was a teen by standing with my door slightly open looking in. (Mom never let me lock my door)
3. Uncles and Aunts - Physical and verbal, they told me how lazy, bad, worse I am than my brother or their children. My aunt would watch me be beaten by my Mom.
4. Cousin - Attempted to sexually abuse me at age 11, I got away.

There's so much back story to these people and why they abused. I've forgiven my Mom, she is sick. I sort of understand what was going on for my Grandpa, the rest of my family...I can only hope to express how angry and disappointed I was one day.

List is too long, really who didn't abuse me in some way..heck I abuse myself all the time.

i took what i posted in her into t tonight. it helped explain a lot more than i can in person.

((((((((KIYA))))))))))
I am so with you. I do most my talking for therapy through writing.
It helps get some things out that I am not ready to speak outloud.

no sexual abuse

physical and emotional abuse (severe) from father, mother, and sister (my mother would force her to help hold me down -- later in life, she became an abuser similar to my mother)

i don't know whether or not to consider severe bullying emotional abuse or not, but: 5 - 11
step-brother - sexual abuse: 9 - 13
step-brother 2 - sexual assault (with a foreign object): 11
step-mother - emotional abuse (mild): 8 - 13

*OK* hard to say......here goes
Physically
mom
,dad,
a b/f........
a few i prefer not to list.........

emotional
all of the above
sister
A few others I just can not seem to write

online abuse.(bullying).......this ones not listed
hardest one to write..........
a few years of living hell.........
due to not self protecting
be safe everyone
feeling very small
going to sit on the curb...

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((EVERYONE)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I'm sorry for all of you have who been through so much (((((((hugs to all))))))))
I know its not easy....

((((((((((muffy)))))))))))))
*sitting on the curb with you*

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hangingon said:
((((((((KIYA))))))))))
I am so with you. I do most my talking for therapy through writing.
It helps get some things out that I am not ready to speak outloud.

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((((((((((((((Hanging On))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

aww(((Kiya ))))))))))))))))))))
aw Thank you
that means so much

((((((Muffy)))))))) how are you doing?? Still on the curb?

Yes, I agree with Kiya it is triggering but the title says it all. Sometimes you got to take a chance and get it out to other people. It's safe here. We are all in the same situation. RIght?
S-Neighborhood adults and kids different times 5-13
High school guys-16
Ex-husband- 30-38
R.S.A 2 -48 : ( (No contact anymore))
The Mother ? -5
Ex Boyfriend 39-40

Emotional
Mother, mom
Ex husband

Physical
Mom, the alcoholic

This was really hard, I am shaking so bad.

Notonlyme, I hope you are taking care of yourself!! Have some tea or some soothing things.
(((((((((((((hugs!!!))))))))))))))))) if you want them.
kiya

I guess the easiest answer for me is who didn't.

i was abused by my brother when i was between the ages of 5-7... i have no idea how long it when on for... or even how far it went... but it still affects me like it was yesterday... <font color="#880000"> </font>

i was abused by:
sexually
babysitter and the children she was watching: age 3
best friends step dad: age 5-10
brother (younger): 13-current was worse but also 7-13

physically
dad: since can remember
brother (younger): since can remember
brother (youngest): since can remember

emotionally
both above lists
ex bf: 18
aunt: various times
mom: since can remember

S- my friend's father
- my uncle attempted to

P- my ex-husband

E- my ex-husband
my mother
my brothers
various 'friends' at school

physically

mother
teacher

emotionally
mother
teacher
grandmother
aunt

sexually
brother