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SweetCrusader · Oct 13, 2004, 10:21 PM

just feeling like i'm a stupid idiot and a piece of crap.

i feel alone and scared and sad.

Angela

Fuzzybear · Oct 13, 2004, 10:43 PM

You aren't alone (I feel that way a lot too sad

...) (((((((((((((((Angela)))))))))))))))

SweetCrusader · Oct 13, 2004, 11:27 PM

thanks.

i'm sorry you feel this way, too sometimes fuzzy

(((((((Ozzie and Fuzzy)))))))))

wisewoman · Oct 13, 2004, 11:42 PM

It's okay to be sad, just tell yourself you are sad and it will change as feelings do and give it room for expression. You are not alone in your sadness and there is no need to put yourslelf down for it. Yup, I am sad right now to. So I say I am sad and it helps. It doesn't help to tell myself I am an idiot for being sad. Be sad, it will change.

ktp · Oct 14, 2004, 01:37 AM

((((Angela)))))

You're not an idiot and you're not a piece of crap, you are DEFINITELY not alone....you're just scared and sad and I want to offer you big big big ((((((Angela)))))) hugs. I'm so sorry you feel this way.

sad

Kimberly

SweetCrusader · Oct 14, 2004, 10:28 AM

(((((((((wisewoman & Kimberly)))))))))

thank you. i'm feeling a little better today. just go through these spells of really hating myself and hurting a lot.

itsjustme111 · Oct 14, 2004, 04:40 PM

awwww. I am sorry to hear that your feeling so down. You are such a wonderful person. I know how hard it is to see that in ourselves, but you are cared for dearly in here.

I am sending you warm thoughts and many hugs, if you don't mind them. I am thinking of you.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((SweetCrusader))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))));

you are loved, please keep that in mind.

Justy

SweetCrusader · Oct 14, 2004, 04:42 PM

Thanks (((((((((Justy)))))))))))

SylverFlames · Oct 14, 2004, 05:48 PM

*hugs* (if it's ok)
It's ok to feel sad every now and then. Just realize that you aren't a "stupid idiot" or a "peice of crap" You're a wonderful person who has helped me a lot since I've joined psychcentral. And you're not alone, look how many people have responded!

I hope you feel better soon. *hugs again* (only if ok)

Sylver

SweetCrusader · Oct 14, 2004, 06:11 PM

Hugs are wonderful. Thank you Sylver!!

And I'm glad to know that I've been able to help you.

I'm feeling better now. Thanks again

((((hugs back))))

nothemama8 · Oct 14, 2004, 06:47 PM

(((((((((Angela))))))))
Without your kindness so many would be sad, you give so much, now it's your turn to recieve, let us support you sweetie.
Angie

Butterfly_Faerie · Oct 14, 2004, 08:53 PM

((((((Angela))))))

kimmydawn · Oct 14, 2004, 10:08 PM

(((((((((((( Angela )))))))))))) if ok. I know you don't know me well.

In looking in posts, I think you are one of the most supportive, insightful, caring persons I've seen. But, as a couple of people have pointed out to me, having the gift of compassion can be emotionally and even physically draining. Compassion is a dear and wonderful emotion, yet draining.

I could never perceive you as "stupid" or as a "piece of crap". I'm so sorry you feel this way. To have the insight and care that you have about yourself and others, you have to be extremely intelligent and far from a piece of crap : ) I try to tell myself the same thing, but sometimes it doesn't work. I think something might be going on inside of me that I haven't yet put my finger on that's making me feel that or, or when I can't help someone I care about figure out difficult things, I feel that way.

I'm sorry you feel alone and scared. I so know how that feels. Sometimes I feel my lonliest when I'm surrounded by people...go figure. I do know I have a huge respect for you as well as a great admiration for what you do here and what you must do for peoples in life. You, to me, are an awesomely wonderful gift. I just want you to know that you're appreciated and admired.

If there's anything I can do for you in this time, let me know please.

Kimmydawn

Oct 14, 2004, 11:17 PM

Hey snookums. So, how long has this low spell been going on? I haven't read all your posts....cuz I just looked at the list of all your posts, and there's just too dang many to sort thru! :-) So, remind me...what's your meds situation? Is a tweaking in order? I'm asking because of those increased negative self-thoughts - for some people, when those crop up after a period of stability, it's time for a meds review. Of course, it could be all the poo that's you've been going through lately increasing stress, and anxiety. But even so, a temp increase in meds might help get you over the hump until you are able to address the stress with other means, like exercise, healthy eating, etc. I'm guessing that right now, that may just sound too hard.

Ya know, for a meditator, I'm quite a pill pusher....

emmy

SweetCrusader · Oct 15, 2004, 12:27 AM

((((((((nothemama8, Sundance, kimmydawn, and emmy))))))))))

I cannot believe the amount of support I have received on this and my other threads lately.

Yes, I know what you mean kimmydawn- all that you said. But actually I think keeping in touch with other people who suffer is saving my life right now. It brings positive energy into my heart and it helps me feel connected. If I can't feel love for me, at least I can feel the warmth of love in my heart for another soul- and build from there.

Emmy, this low spell has been going on for several months as I've been involved in some intense trauma work. I have never been medicated and I don't even know what my diagnosis is actually. I keep trying to pull myself out, but the tremendous amount of stressors I am dealing with right now are just weighing me down. I am also isolated from any source of 3d emotional support right now. I only have the internet and telephone. And I seem to lack motivation to get out there and create more support for myself.

I am fighting. I am trying my best. I just hurt a lot. Somedays are better than others.

Love to you all. Thanks so much for the blessing of you in my life!!!

Angela

kimmydawn · Oct 15, 2004, 02:30 PM

((((((((((((Angela))))))))))))

I hear you. Yes, that's why people with a compassionate spirit continue and nourish that spirit in their lives. It has wonderful payoffs for self as well. I didn't mean to diminish that aspect. I feel my most whole, complete and useful when I've been able to, even in just a small way, help someone or relate to them. What I was trying to say is, that even the best things in life can be draining in other ways when it doesn't leave time for what we made need for self. I really hope you come through this time knowing how much you are thought of and appreciated.

It sounds like like you have good, clear boundaries and expectations with your commitment to caring for others. That's wonderful! On the other hand, I sometimes lose myself in helping others. Right now, I'm trying to care for my 23 mo old nephew...going on the third week. If I'm not careful, I can lose myself and any focus I may have.

Be safe,

Kimmydawn

(JD) · Oct 17, 2004, 04:28 PM

.... this isn't the response you want... but it made me think that even pieces of crap (dried, preferably horse or cow) make great flying toys!

SweetCrusader · Oct 17, 2004, 05:17 PM

LOL! Sky! oh goodness...

ktp · Oct 18, 2004, 08:16 AM

LOL....LOL Sky...that's too funny...

Angela...Sky has a point. LOL.

((((hugs))))) to you both.
Kimberly.

shakes · Oct 18, 2004, 01:25 PM

(((Angela))))
Sorry that I did not see this sooner... I hope that you are feeling better. THis time of year just sucks for feelings I think.
We are with you lady.

Jessica

NicoleB · Oct 18, 2004, 01:53 PM

((((((((((((((((((((Angela)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Sorry I didn't see this sooner. I just wanted to say that you are not stupid or a piece of [censored]. You have helped me so much over the past couple of weeks since I joined psychcentral. Let me know if you just want to talk, God knows you have listened to me jabber on enough.

Nicole