does anyone set up situations to relive the abuse

Why do I do this?why do I want to re-live the same abuse. I know that it can seem like normal because that's what I know, but I set up situations with strangers to be abused. This computer may be my downfall. My parts know too much about getting access to things we shouldn't. They ask for treatment that we knew as abuse.
What is wrong with this picture? I think I need to get some help. I have a good therapist and doc but I don't know if I want to deal with this. I'm realising that we must have a serious sex addiction. I've never said that before, but I am getting alittle frightened.
I thought I was getting better, but this is far worse than I ever thought. I think I had better call someone. bye, listener

Hi listener,

I think there are people who set up situations that mimic the abuse they experienced in the past - I think this is more common than you may realize, both sexually and in other ways. I don't struggle with the kind of problems you're mentioning, but lately I've really been wanting to hit myself, and I've been wondering, like you, if in some way I'm wanting to re-create some of the abuse I experienced in the past....and I don't know. I hope maybe you'll think about talking with your therapist about it. I know that's probably a scary thought, but I would imagine that would be a start for finding some help with this, or at least it would be a place to get some of the thoughts and feelings out. There are also support groups for people who have sexual addiction, if you think that might be a problem you have.

Take care,
ErinBear

I can relate to what you are experiencing. When I first reached out for help, someone told me it was a great sign I valued myself just enough to want to stop hurting myself with what dulled my pain, but solved no problems. I was VERY afraid, but even though addiction had helped me avoid a lot of pain in my youth I maybe couldn't handle then, the consequences of addiction became too self-destructive and too serious and too scary. My plans for suicide had become too real. It's still a daily struggle, but you are not alone if you have a sex addiction, and I really hope you keep reaching out and find true recovery. Dig deep for strength and reach out to others for more. You're worth it.

mtd

shame prevents us from healing and learning from our past

That is an excellent thought and can even be applied to other forms of peoples' struggles.
Thanks purebugg for sharing this here

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