Constant, biting, emptiness.

I have come to describe a persistent feeling, both physical and psychological as an extraordinarily uncomfortable emptiness that begs to be filled. It feels much like a thirst or a hunger, but cannot be quenched or sated. I attempt, on a nearly daily basis to fill it with something, this has lead to career successes, and a veritable plethora of useful skills. However, the sensation of emptiness is the overriding facet of my life. It is so uncomfortable that nothing else can be enjoyed. Several activities are helpful in causing a subsidence effect, including; smoking cigarettes, playing frantic games, and watching or reading some engaging work of fiction.
If anyone has any idea, or has had dealings with a similar sensation, i would be absolutely thrilled to hear any sort of success in lasting relief. I think i would do just about anything to shoo it away.

Hi Jeff,

You do well to channel your need into the search for productive enterprises. My lifelong Depression has had me feeling like this, and I have chased - something? - with both totally self-destructive and positive behaviours. Neither have a satisfying outcome, but the positive behaviour, by definition, doesn't damage you further physically and mentally.

Many try, and benefit from, Therapy. I have been badly betrayed by Psychologists I trusted, so it is not an option for me, but I can see the help it brings to people when they find a good T. A combination of Therapy and ADs can be very effective in producing answers, more than either on it's own.

I am sorry you have this feeling, this need, but while it is driving you to make positive choices I would not let it overwhelm you. You have plenty of time to work things out while you are accumulating new skills.

Dave.

Hello jefflongssj: I see this is your first post here on PC... so... welcome to PsychCentral... from the Skeezyks! May you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

Yes, I can relate to this. I'm an older person. And it makes me cringe to think of all of the money I spent over the years trying to fill the void within. Unfortunately I didn't experience much career success nor did I develop much of anything in the way of skills.

I am married. But beyond that I am completely solitary, by choice. (No good has ever resulted from me having anything to do with anyone, in real life.) I still feel that emptiness within that caused me to spend so much money in years past. And although I am solitary by choice, my solitude sometimes exacerbates that feeling of emptiness. As a result, I have had to learn to simply embrace the feeling, to breathe into it & essentially float within it much as if I were floating in calm water.

I also suffer from the "void" that's what I call the emptiness. I really don't have any advice to offer other than you're not alone.