Really sick.

My daughter is worried I may be dying. Honestly I've lost all hope of my life improving. All I do is make bad decisions that hurt me and those I love. I may have cancer of the uterus. I'll find out July 7th.

I finished a Bachelor degree in 2011, after my mental health diagnosis in 2007. No one in my field will hire me. I'm legally homeless now, since Feb. My credit, once excellent is gone.

I really can't deal with my life choices. I don't even listen to God, my gut instinct, my family, who cuts me out when I don't listen. I just do whatever, whenever. Well I give up.

I asked God to take me out a few days ago. After an argument with my 3rd husband. Yesterday I met with an OB/Gyn. I ovulated, hormones are fine, not premetapause, it's either a polyp or cancer.

I just give up. My dad is gone, my son is gone, my daughter lives with dad and step mom. Life is just too hard and too awful. All those loses killed my spirit than. Now I know 3 people who on this planet would want me around. My daughter, my husband who just now was giving me pep talk, and my best friend.

The only one who would really hurt a little to leave is my girl.

You matter to us because we do care about you

If you scroll right down to the bottom right hand corner of this page there's a grey block - "Helplines and Lifelines".

This may be of use to you

I am so sorry to hear things are going badly for you. Let's keep hope that your uterine problem will not be cancer. Were you spotting or having watery blood loss? That's what the main symptom was when my sister had uterine cancer. She's fine now. It's not something that kills people, generally. My sister's was even Stage 4--and she's alive after over ten years. See? But it's likely a polyp.

You said there are some folks who will miss you. Hang in here for them. I believe there's always hope. Please call a helpline to get support. We want you here. Please listen to somebody. Giving up is also not a good decision. Stay around and learn from the past. We all make mistakes. Sometimes a lot of them.

Have you contacted agencies for help, such as churches?

Nothing watery, clots; though that part is mostly done, but bleeding like day 2 of my cycle, most of the time.

You are certainly going through a lot right now. You sound really hopeless, and I hope you find encouragement soon. I with you in the job hunt, getting rejected left, right, and center. It is very difficult for us recent grads.

My mom had uterine cancer, and she (thank God!) is fine today. She had a hysterectomy, and that was a cure for her. Hopefully you don't have cancer, but if you do then know there is hope. I know how scary the thought of cancer can be.

Please stay strong. Things are bound to improve.