[Have Hope]

Im really stressed. I have to step up to the plate today and speak out. Not my forte. And we may lose the business if I don’t speak the truth. My manager is of no help. I’m flying solo on this. Ugh.

returning to work after time off for illness....not real sure how I am going to do since work can be strenuous. haven't been able to do m uch except taking the dog to therapy visits..it will be nice to get a check again, but still worried about my health. going to be a long weekend...plus it snowed like 5". is it spring yet?

[seesaw]

On hour 14 now of working trying to make a deadline for tomorrow.

I am coming up on my 5 year anniversary with my boss and I am dismayed that it seems all my (male) bosses come out the same. The only answer is me but I am not sure how to resolve it.

When I get something for my boss I put it in an email for him. At first we didn't have a lot of problems but now... he is busy and gets a lot of e-mails. So he misses things. Ok no problem. I will just bring them to his attention.

But he resents me doing that and comes up with strained excuses why it was "my fault" he didn't get to them, at first it was funny and cute but now it is really getting on my nerves.

I sent him some items on Wednesday. He called me later and told me, he had taken care of them. Yesterday when I went to process them I found out 1/2 of them weren't done. I brought them back to his attention. He pretends this is the first he is hearing of it.

Now he has for a while played this game where I have to prove to him I had sent them to him in the first place. That used to be a pain but set up a macro to find my sent e-mails to him so they are easy to find. So each e-mail had the original at the bottom. So I am confused.

But then I find out, he is reading his e-mails on his phone via the summary. So he isn't even bothering to read the entire e-mail that I spend time giving to him.

I did tell him off with that but he still pretended like it doesn't matter.

So here is what I think... I think he resents me and that I am on top of things. I also think he doesn't like the work. And thus, he plays this stupid game of, you're at fault. To avoid the work and also take me down a few pegs.

I am getting sick of it. I always feel like my bosses are there just to take me down a few pegs. They come up with stupid busy work constantly to thwart me.

Another example... we are in charge of work. Certain bosses give us assignments and when we are done with those assignments we close them out. Doesn't matter what the customers think. He sent me an e-mail the other day asking if we had lost track of a case. No, clearly not. Everyone in my workgroup had brought it to his attention frequently. But we will pretend that .so I sent an e-mail back saying we had one thing open and once that was done I would close it out. He asks me to find out from the customers if they agreed that we were all done. That isn't the way it works!! To do that would add tons of time to my day. No, it is just a stall tactic. But, it makes work for me because it is difficult not only to get in touch with the customers but also get them to respond (as this isn't the way it is done).

All my bosses act like I am deceiving them when I take pains to make sure I am not.

I like to put everything in writing but eventually they like to pick up the phone because they realize they can lie more easily we have a phone conversation.

I am the person who schedules things and eventually the bosses take that over and pick poor times...

[Have Hope]

I am gearing up for yet another day of drudgery. TGIF!!!!!!

[Mountaindewed]

I feel bad about work. I only worked a few hours this week and I don’t work again until next Thursday. I am pretty sure everyone’s hours were cut so I shouldn’t feel too bad. I know if they need me they will call me. The weather is supposed to be awful this afternoon and weekend. My mom says she can’t drive me to work so I hope if they need me it’s on Monday. I don’t want to call them and offer to come in because I don’t want them to get mad at me. They obviously had a particular way of doing the schedule these 2 weeks.

[Have Hope]

It's depressing to me to be constantly up against battles and obstacles to my own success at work. It's maddening that our leadership sucks. Once again, they gave poor direction today on yet another matter. I am most frustrated. Wish another job would pop up, but there's nothing so far. I am really discouraged. I want to leave like now.

[seesaw]

Originally Posted by Have Hope

It's depressing to me to be constantly up against battles and obstacles to my own success at work. It's maddening that our leadership sucks. Once again, they gave poor direction today on yet another matter. I am most frustrated. Wish another job would pop up, but there's nothing so far. I am really discouraged. I want to leave like now.

Not sure what you do, I know you don't want to give details. But have you ever considered going out on your own and consulting/starting your own business?

[Have Hope]

Originally Posted by seesaw

Not sure what you do, I know you don't want to give details. But have you ever considered going out on your own and consulting/starting your own business?

Thanks, @seesaw. I do prefer a salary and a guaranteed check every week. I am far too anxious of a person to not have a guaranteed salary. lol. I do want to rise in position as well.... I see myself working in a company, but a larger one.

And I do see myself in leadership. I feel ready for it. I've been mentally gearing myself up for it and prepping for it by thinking: "How would I lead? How would I do things differently? How do other people lead their teams to success in other companies? These thoughts are frequently floating around my head.

And whenever I see my own company's leadership failing, I think: "how would I have approached that problem?" and "what's the best solution to that problem?"

I just need to find the right opportunity. Some days I'm ready to bolt, but bottom line is, I am willing to wait and put up with the dysfunction until the right company and job is in front of me. I am actively looking and working with recruiters, and putting feelers out... every day. So I am active at least.

And I am making friends with a Director in our company who is a female who works very closely with the CEO. She is a real fireball and I really like her a LOT. She and I are becoming chummier, and I am hoping that perhaps I could eventually rely on her to help me while I am still working there.

She's totally irreverent and is really funny too. Yesterday she anointed herself as "COO", and I told her I support her fully in that. We were joking around. Apparently she has no official job title and doesn't officially report to anyone. Well, except the CEO of course. Then she anointed me as the Head of my team. I told her how difficult it can be working as the only female with all males. She knew what I meant.

Oh who knows. I go back and forth every day on this issue. lol.

[Have Hope]

I feel absolutely DISGUSTED and FED UP. Now my company is asking me to flat out LIE to my new client. I am SO done. I want out ASAP...... maybe I'll just find a whatever position. I really want to quit now, but I cannot.

[seesaw]

Originally Posted by Have Hope

I feel absolutely DISGUSTED and FED UP. Now my company is asking me to flat out LIE to my new client. I am SO done. I want out ASAP...... maybe I'll just find a whatever position. I really want to quit now, but I cannot.

They asked you to lie on a weekend?

[Have Hope]

Originally Posted by seesaw

They asked you to lie on a weekend?

No. They asked me on Friday. Now I have to deal with it today.

[seesaw]

Originally Posted by Have Hope

No. They asked me on Friday. Now I have to deal with it today.

They didn't give you MLK Day off? Bastards.

[Have Hope]

Originally Posted by seesaw

They didn't give you MLK Day off? Bastards.

Yep, bastards!!!

[Mountaindewed]

Work called and asked if I’d come in tomorrow for an afternoon shift. Weird I haven’t worked an afternoon shift in 1.5 years. I’m not complaining though because I wanted more hours and now I get out of going to the dentist. Odd shift though.

[Mountaindewed]

I guess things got screwy so they needed everyone to work the afternoon shift. I’m glad so many people showed up because in the past I have been the only one to show up to do BS stuff when the schedule gets changed to the afternoon.

[Mountaindewed]

My hair is already short but today I buzzed most of it off. We’ll see how tomorrow goes. Once I come in there wearing a binder and this buttoned up shirt I ordered they may have their suspicions. If they ask me I will tell.

[Turtle_Rider]

They asked me to work on day-off again. I refuse. Why should I work when I don't get overtime pay. It's not me who getting the praises and compliment anyway.

[Have Hope]

I HATE my company, I HATE my so-called team manager, I am rip roaring boiling pissed off and had to take the rest of the day off to cool down. I got yelled at today. F them.

[Mountaindewed]

I got to to work. The manager met me at the door and he said “so Mountaindewed” and I’m thinking “oh crap I’m getting fired on the spot.” But he was just telling me things got screwy again and they didn’t need me. So I offered to come in tomorrow instead which he said would be great. My mom had just left the parking lot so she turned around. He claimed someone tried calling me but I checked when I got home and no one did. Someone else was also sent home at the door. They did apologize for it happening again. Retail in January can be so weird sometimes.

[Mountaindewed]

I had my jacket on all day because I was cold. I came back from break and I ran into a coworker from a different department. She said to me “going home?” Maybe I’ve become just a tad bit too predictable.

maybe because you had your coat on. that would lead someone to think you might be leaving...just saying

fell about 2 weeks ago and hurt my wrist. went to the er and they found nothing broken. also have been fighting severe kidney issues. got stuck over the weekend unloading a pallet of boxes of summer toys. felt like I was dying. went to the ortho dr yesterday & wrist got slapped into a cast..so thankfully i'll have 4 weeks of light work, just working on the register and doing the section i'm in charge of.

spent all day sunday dealing with a supervisor who cried all shift. have no patience for that...21 yr old woman who just has no clue..just because you want to be a supervisor doesn't mean you should be one. no reason to stand and bawl you whole shift...nothing that happens at a store if bawl worthy and if your personal life is that upsetting you should stay home and get help. just not professional.

hopefully when I go back she will have gotten some sense of control. no patience for that crap.

[Have Hope]

I feel great pressure to perform, and it's stressing me out. I am now stepping up to the plate, acting as a true consultant to my clients, and it's stressful. I have to give a client presentation on Friday, pitching to them a new proposal. I hope they accept what I propose. Man, this job is stressful. I don't want to work with clients anymore.

[Mountaindewed]

I don’t get why my coworkers are so immature. I’m more mature and I don’t argue like they do and I’m bipolar and autistic and sleep deprived most days I’m in there. I don’t get it.