uhoh

i am so ashamed.
i did a couple of hits cocaine.
i didnt even feel like my self when i was doing it.
i feel like all that time i took to get off cocaine just beat the crap out of me.
i'll probablly get addicted again now.
im so lost.

I know how you must feel. A lot of people have had useing again. But U and only you can stop U. It is your choice I wish U well. how are you trying to stop. Is the way you are doing it working. If not time to find another way.

Lets see if I got this right, you were just sitting there and this 8ball of cocaine just fell out of the sky, and right into your lap?

Or did you chose to go find it? Did you hook up with a buddy that uses, and knew when you did that that you would use as well? If you keep old playmates and old play pens close at hand, you are going to keep doing the things you are doing now.

Did you ask God for help before you walked out of your door and right into your line of cocaine? Or did you leave the door running the show?

If you want what we have, do what we did.

Richard

I hooked up with an old buddy, and we both did it.
I feel really bad about it, I know I could have not called him up, but I did, I didnt even feel like myself when I was doing all the cocaine, when I called him, when I got into his car, I felt like I couldnt control myself, but I could control myself, thats why I feel so horrible about it.
-Megan-

Hi, want you 2 know i understand how it feels 2 b powerless, but by
finding yourself a loving, caring higher power and by changing your playmates to people who are positive and clean, you can be freed of your obsession to use. Are you ready 2 surrender, have you admitted to your innermost self that you cannot use successfully,because only when you have done that have you opened the door 2 recovery.
wishing you well. lots of love and guidance and hopefully a end to the insanity of using.
nicky1 xxx

By the way after years of abusing myself and allowing other people to abuse me, all in the name of drugs and supposedly having a good time. Ihave been clean and sober for over 4 years.My life is good now ,and i am learning how 2 live life on lifes terms.I no longer walk round in pain feeling like i have a empty void in my soul.It has been powerful and esteem building being able to support others on their journey of recovery. Lots of LOVE, HOPE,FAITH and TRUST

nicky1

Hey there Damajdancer

I live in Ireland just incase I sound a bit odd.

Sometimes I feel everyone's 'sober', everyone's got the 'solution', already - which is great... but it feels like mum talking to a child...

I know how you feel about this 'buddy', I think. At least .I discovered my 'buddy' was an ar!se (he was my dealer) , knew all my secrets - (as you do when you're off your face...). He ended blackmailing me for sex in the end. Just remember - men are men - and if you're trashed...

Do you get to that stressed state where you just wrap yourself up in a duvet and pray for the end of the earth?

I have new friends now - they're DJ's and good fun. I'm exposed to alcohol - but I can see that these hard core mothertruckers can do it, without... and that's what makes me go on - if these super cool people can do it - I can't be a lame a!sre about it.

Unfortunately I am though (still not there - but have the rolemodels). At least I have good friends - choose them wisely, stay away from that 'Buddy'.

I just mean well
HC XXXX

Thank you all for the support.
HC I can understand what your saying, it sucks.
I have buddys that dont do drugs, and they are helping me get out of my situation.
Its not easy, but Im getting there.
Thanx again everyone!
-Megan-

This guy dies and he goes to Hell. Satan meets him at the brimstone gates and starts showing him around.

As they walk through hell, the guy notices a pit, covered with great iron bars. “In that pit is where we keep all the murderers,” Satan tells him. They go a little further, and he sees another pit covered with heavy iron bars. That is where we keep all the rapists, Satan tells him.

They walk a bit further and the guy sees a pit full of people, but with no iron bars covering it at all. He asks Satan, “Who is in that pit?” Satan tells him that pit is where we keep all the alcoholics and drug addicts.

The guy asks Satan, how come you don’t have any bars over that pit, aren’t you afraid they will try to escape? Satan says “I’m not worried about any of them getting out, when one of them tries to get out, one of his buddies always drags him back in.”

Richard

thanx richard, that makes alot of sense.