I am not an alcoholic

I've been thinking to myself "I'm not an alcoholic i just like to drink a lot"and then i think of all the people i have known in the past ,who just liked to drink a lot.I think of what i thought of them when i was a child.I even new then that they werent right,thaey would be different from the sober people i knew wether it be an uncle,my stepfather they where drunks,my best freinds father,he was also,i remember these people and im trying to see myself in them,try to see waht they where like when they were 30yrs old like me,and you know what.I can i can see as clear as day.the only difference is that i have this pc and an outlet,even as i sit here right now with another bottle of whiskey in hand and another failed day at sobriety.I dont want to be like them i really dont.Ahwell theres allways tomorow,but only a limited amount of times i can say that.

Normal or heavy drinkers don't sit around wondering if they're an alcoholic or not......You keep having days of failed sobriety, maybe it's time to try something different, because what you're doing isn't working. You don't have to go it alone, and you can get sober.

When you are ready you will stop or die. it tends to get your attention Good luck

There is such a thing as a functional alcoholic...and of course they too would suffer from denial. If your in doubt, you question it, you observe it and compare yourself with other drinkers, then deny it......well, I'm sure you'll figure out what I am saying....only you can decide whether you are or not. I hope you find your way.

Hi Wanting,
I'm new here, so please forgive me if I misunderstand your post. But if I read it correctly, then I think you are on the right track.

Whatever label you choose to put on yourself, is irrelevant, in some ways. The important thing is that you have seen that you are doing something you don't want to do, and becoming a person who you don't want to be. I think that in itself is a major turning point.

The crucial part is to now decide what you are going to do about it.

You use the phrase "failed day at sobriety," so I guess you have some knowledge of all the places you can go for help and support. But if not, I'm sure myself, or someone on the site, will happily point you in the right direction.

Best of luck to you pal, I hope you find your way.

Martyn