Alcohol induced palpitations

Anxiety....insomnia....restlessness.....hypochondria....depression....

how many times have I been there...

Relapsed again....its been 72 hours....I justify it by saying its only weekend beer binges at night....

...sigh...

in recovery.....again....

As you might be discovering for yourself, my occasionally being sober during the week never reduced the intensity or consequences of my next drunk...and that is because each drink taken demands more of itself no matter how long it has been since the last time. Beyond all of that, however, I finally realized being sober and even seriously meaning to stay sober never meant I was actually in recovery. Instead, my problems with sobriety always returned to the surface after the alcohol had again been removed.

My unsolicited suggestion: Drop the idea of "Don't drink one-day-at-a-time" in favor of actually taking the Steps as they are in the book in order to find a "sufficient substitute" (page 152) for alcohol. "Don't drink one-day-at-a-time" until you again end up drunk again and then rinse-and-repeat until dead is the insanity of today's AA killing real alcoholics one-debacle-at-time.

Intro Ma Man! Hang in there - it's a battle!

day 5 .....things are much better now....ive been here before and relapsed....this weekend will still be dry...for sure����

Way to go on 5 days. You can get through the weekend. Just take it one day or one hour at a time. You can totally do this.

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day 6....no symptoms of withdrawals all day....but theres a minor pang of anxiety and palps that came and lasted 5 mins...

We got your back!

Hang in there. Withdrawal sucks no question, but sobriety is so much better - eventually. Won't lie, it took me a while to see that being sober was better than drinking, but now I've got just over a year sober I see it, and wouldn't go back. You can totally do this.

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day 8....mornings are better....afternoons well...

It always takes me 14 days to feel anywhere near normal...keep going...try to remember the feelings you had 8 days ago....

I hear ya Missy.... Thanks

day 10....sleep slowly getting better

Yes sleep is another area of disturbance when we binge....I too take about 14 days to start sleeping "better". I never sleep great..which is another trigger for me to drink...but I should realize that drinking makes it worse after the binge...

Yea, you pass out the first night...and sleep but after that for me its all about withdrawals..and thoughts of how to get more...and then thoughts of how I'm going to stop without horrible withdrawals...

11 days now....7:22pm.... all day been having slight palpitations.....difference is, they were very slight and didn't bother me much....just enough to notice they were there....no real intensity to them just a tiny bit noticeable....

Someone else may be having similar symptoms at this stage...hopefully it goes away entirely....maybe just part of the healing and recovery process....

When I was going through alcohol withdrawals, my blood pressure always shot up really high, and did weird things to my heart rhythm. Things usually settled down after a couple of weeks.

Hang in. It gets better.

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same here on the blood pressure thing....

Intro...awesome to see you are still hanging in there...its not easy...

Thanks Misssy....

Saturday mornin....day 13....omg....the psychological cravings (not physical) are coming on strong today....

sigh....

I just got over my sugar binges....its like i never stopped drinking.....sugar and alcohol withdrawals have a similar effect, but sugar is not as potent for symptoms.

I mean....alcohol puts on the weight gain, and the sugar did too....I feel like Im over both now...so on to the healing and recovery of day 13....

My immediate goal is to get thru this weekend....my next goal is 21 days....I read where 21 days is the bodys response to habitual changes....lets hope that sticks...

My goal after that is 30 days....one month...that would be a proud day...

These goals are not only to abstain from alcohol, but processed sugar foods.



more rain please....

day 13....

I came so close to cracking a case of beer....needless to say, i didn't open a single bottle or take a single sip...but i wanted to sooo bad...

its almost bedtime in a hour....i have a slight headache...nothing major just slight....almost like something thats symptomatic of protracted withdrawal...

If you are a real alcoholic, drinking again is inevitable until after a complete psychic change has occurred. Others will pat you on the back and cheer you on for not drinking, but then they will blame you when you end up drunk again and without anyone understanding why.

The original A.A. can fix that where today's AA cannot.

im poering thru all these cravings....im determined....im also learning a lot

im learning that with each and every craving i nearly give in to.....i began to reason with myself that i deserve to have a few drinks....after all...ive made enough progress right??....theres nothing wrong with having these drinks...i mean who wants to be sober for all those days anyway??....

but then i remember the pain....the sickness....the scary palpitations....the anxiety....the depression....etc....etc....etc....did that help me keep from drinking?....no

something else did....

physical cravings were due to the HALT theory for me....Hungry Angry Lonely Tired

I was notAngry Lonely or Tired...i got Hungry...i fixed that and the cravings went away...

I learned an important lesson today...

That is fine as long as it works. For myself, it did not.