I need help, But do not want to see a doctor.

Okay let me start off by saying i think i have a serious problem,
and this is even my first time admitting it to myself. I seem to have
formed this eating disorder over the last year, I have been eating not very many calories
(Trust me i count) for 6 days, and then i'll eat so much
i'll feel paralyzed, and throw up, even now as i'm writing this
my stomach is in complete agony.

Another thing is, i only eat
dinner even on my binge days, regularly, i will eat one small cup of bagged salad
and a tiny bowl of green vegetables like snow peas or broccoli.

On my binge days i'll eat a entire box of pasta with sauce, or
6 slices of veggie pizza. On top of that i have been taking
a laxative 6 times a day, (Miralax). I have been taking that daily for over a year.

Another thing is i'm sick... ALL THE TIME. I have stomach problems, chest problems and all around emotion problems.

I hate to admit it, but i think my bad habits are now rubbing off on my brother, He doesn't eat lunch anymore and slowly hes been
eating less and less. The other day he binged on a bag of candy until he threw up and hasn't really eaten since.

I'm 5'10 and just over one hundred, My brother is 5'6 and under one hundred.
I'm a horrible person, who makes her mother cry daily and i need help, but i don't want to go to a doctor.
Advice please?

If you truly do want to get better, the only answer is to go to the MD. Sometimes we push ourselves to the point where we don't like the only solution we have ended up giving ourselves....but that's life.

My mother was in denial of her cancer until it was stage 4 & she died from it.....sometimes we make BAD choices......take care of yourself before it is too late.

Hi friend, welcome to PC!
Your not gunna like this, but you need to see a doctor. I would recommend going to an inpatient eating disorder treatment facility to get the help you need. I can say that because I just got out one of those facilities, and I did not think I was sick enough to go. But trust me, you will never think you are "sick enough" to get treatment. Now is the best time to go.
I would recommend the Eating Recovery Center. They have places all over the country, and a really good program.
I hope you get the help you need. Good luck!

Hello Z-Doll: The only way you're going to heal is to reach out for the help you need... perhaps to your family doctor, to a psychiatrist or a mental health therapist or counselor. It's time...

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