Dreams causing anxiety

Hi everyone.

I have been having a dream lately that is causing me alot of anxiety. It's making my head feel...........crazy.

Please do not read below this line if you are easily triggered................................................................









My Uncle died almost 2 years ago in March. He was a beautiful, loving, kind, caring, compassionate and generous person. The best person in the world and the best person to have on your side. He was also my God father.

Lately, I have been having these dreams about certain things. I cant recall the entire dream but I do remember parts of them. In one of my dreams, I am in a crowded room. Lots of people are there. It's almost like a party or a formal ball of some sort (weird). As I am looking around the room I see my Uncle standing there with the people in various places. Now even in my dream I know that he is dead but it seems that in my dream I am the only one who see's him. It's weird. I am not afraid of him in my dreams. I am just amazed that he is there. In full form. He looks so real. It's like I can reach out and touch him. But I dont. I dont even walk up to him. I just sit there staring in amazement.

I usually will wake up pretty quickly from this dream. I think I may have had it more then once but I am not sure.


In the other dream. My Uncle's wife has my Uncle's body dug up because there is a machine that could "possibly" bring him back to life. With this machine, it is just a "possibility" not a "guarentee". I can feel myself being so angry and upset in this dream because I dont understand why My Aunt is doing this, knowing that it may not bring him back. Making all of us go through the pain of losing him again.

When I woke up from this dream I was literally sweating. Very anxious.

I dont know why I am having these dreams. Last week on the 9th of November, it was the 1 year anniversary of my grandmothers death. I am not sure if maybe that has triggered something or not. When that day came, last week. I wasnt even exactly sure how I felt about it. I am still not sure. I feel like so much has happened since then. I feel like a life time as passed and other times I feel like it was just so recent.

These dreams are making me very afraid and anxious. I have a great fear of death as I am sure so many of us do. But more then that, the dreams themselves make me feel crazy. Like when I wake up I think, OMG did that really happen and it takes me a while to know that it was in fact, just a dream.

I dont know why I am dreaming this now. I just dont know why.

It's making my head feel very off.

i'm so sorry. dreams can really throw us for a loop, can't they? being so close to your uncle intensifies all of those feelings that come after you wake up. let me know if you want to talk. xoxox pat

I could be wrong ..I am no dream guru as you know but I am thinking it's stress and worry about your wanting him well and back but not sick and that maybe where the anxiety is from.

I know pain and fear well so I KNOW you are upset and scared. For that I am very sorry...maybe the anniversary triggered this

((( JEN )))

((((((((((((((((Pat))))))))))))))))))))

(((((((((((((((SWBF))))))))))))))))


I received a wonderful PM from a very special someone on dream interpretation.

I found some of the interpretations to be pretty accurate. There was something that said, I may have unresolved anger issues with my Uncle and/or Aunt. I think this is true. Not anger in the sense of "I hate you" anger. More along the lines of, "why didnt you take this more seriously" type anger. I hope that makes sense.

In the months since his death have been pretty up and down for me. For the most part I try to avoid thinking about the circumstances surrounding his death and therefore I pretty much avoid thinking about him at all. It is very painful. Maybe, my subconcious knows that I am now ready to deal with some of the feelings I am and have been having about him all these months.

I am angry that after his initial diagnosis he was referred to a specialist who happened to be on vacation for 2 weeks. My Aunt and Uncle chose to wait those 2 weeks to see this particular DR. I am angry that they waited. WHY would they wait?. WHy did they not treat this with the utmost importance? I am angry with them and the initial DR that DX'd him. WHY didnt that DR take it upon himself to make them understand that it was imparative that he see someone right away.
Even after he saw this DR, they were were so slow in his care.

I DO NOT understand, how someone can be DX'd with cancer and die 43 days later. I DO NOT understand.