Anxiety Daily Check-In Point #3

I have to say, the Ativan has kicked my anxiety in the butt. I hope it stays that way.

The heat today seems to have heightened my anxiety and gave me a headache. I am drinking lots of water and resting - hoping that will make me relax.

I've been well lately; 2 weeks without an event. Then, BANG! last night's support group triggered me in so many ways. I had the overwhelming need to escape and did so. I just walked out.

Through no fault of his own, last night's moderator lost control of the group. Not sure if something was in the water. One expects one or two people to be strange at such a meeting but last night it seemed several were off their meds. That triggered me. I got irritated. People spoke out of turn and just wouldn't relent or shut up. Irritation grows. We have one participant who want to talk only about politcs. He's not very educated and well, he's making a boob of himself. Will he ever shut up?! Then there is another who never talks about her mental health. She's never identified her symptoms or diagnosis. When it's her turn she only whines about her husband not working harder - why shouldn't she have the nice clothes and vacations her friends do? Aaaaargh!

My biggest trigger last night came from a new fellow who joined us. He was no problem; polite, articulate, respectful. The problem though is that I recognized him from a dark traumatic period of my life going back 30 years ago. No, there was not ill feelings about him, but his presence triggered many horrible memories.

I couldn't help it. I jumped from my seat and made a dash for the door.

Sorry to those others who attended.

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Made a huge step yesterday. We took our daughter to an extremely crowded swimming pool. I didn't swim or even take my shirt off (a BIG deal for me) but just the fact that we took her somewhere new and bustling with people is a big deal.

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that's actually really good!

i'd worry if i did that that their's no way out (i'm shaking and i'm only typing this at the moment)

but yes.. i kmnow if it was me and i ended up in them iddle of a crowed place- i wouldn't know quite what to do first. scream to be rescued or burst in to tears

I had a major win against my anxiety this weekend...

I'm not sure why I went hours early to a function on Saturday; my intuition must have been bothering me. The people we'd arranged to cater the dinner failed to show. It ended up me who took charge - and BBQ'd for 140 people at the last minute.

I took a sick pigeon from the street yesterday because I couldn't just left it like that and kept him through the night in order to go to the vet next day, but it died.

Now I'm having ocd about catching some illness from the poor fellow.

Feeling broken and hoping that feeling will pass soon.

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I almost had a panic attack this morning over feeling overwhelmed about the move coming in 6 weeks. There is so much to do and with my health I can only do about 1-2 hours a day on getting things ready for the move. The anxiety is almost paralyzing and I will really have to push hard to get my chores done this afternoon. I took a klonopin this morning and it has helped some but has mostly made me tired which is zapping my motivation out of me.

Well I have had some to deal with. I had an unexpected expense earlier in the month I couldn't avoid. That left $5 for food for the last 10 days of the month. But things have ways of resolving themselves. I went for coffee with my brother and he told me to keep the change (thankyou, that's enough bread and peanut butter for the week). Then dad suggested we bbq this wknd - and that he take me grocery shopping for all the food. He was good enough to allow me to throw some extra things through the till.

So at this very moment I am less worried.

Feeling quite anxious today. I had a good day though, but I always get so horribly upset and sad and nervous in the evening and it causes me to be very anxious after all

So anxious right now. Don't know why. I feel like puking my insides out. Just want to chill out.

Is it normal for Latuda to cause moderate anxiety?

Not having a good day today. Clients haven't paid me on time (I'm a freelance graphic/web designer), and I'll need to turn to my mom for help again. It wouldn't be so bad if I was in my 20s and it only happened once in a while, but I'm nearing 40 and it's become a semi-regular occurrence of late, since I've been having more trouble than usual finding new clients. Clearly the freelancing life isn't working out, so it's time to explore other options.

I decided to go out yesterday. I'm such an embarassment. I have a great difficulty with recognizing cars at first sign, which already ended up in getting to the passenger seat of the wrong vehicle. Yesterday I was waiting for my friend and she was driving, so I stood in this alley at night, then some car of the same colour appeared, so I thought, there she is, and started smiling at the driver, walking past the car a bit, waving, just like a professional hoe...that just wasn't the right car. There was some guy inside. My brain is just...Naah.

Been a while since I have posted here...

My mood has improved drastically since I started Citalopram & my anxiety has slowly been getting better, certainly not out of control anymore although the Citalopram isn't working quite as well as last time I was on it.

Anyway. Things were starting to look up. And then I get an unexplained rash...

Nurse said it's probably nothing to worry about & that some ibuprofen I was prescribed might have thinned my blood. Otherwise it could be a sign of other various fun problems like vasculitis. (of course I couldn't resist Googling that when I got home..)

So fantastic... I guess until it goes I'll be worrying about having something wrong with me now. At least the nurse so no cause for concern at this point...

I hope your rash clears up, Loyal. I got a rash with hives when I was on Geodon. Did I misspell that?

Anyway, it may have been something in the genetic they were using. They're not good at dispensing the best generic. Since last year, they now will no longer dispense the one that's easy to get down. Instead, they expect their customers to take the very bitter horse pill which is terrifying to try to get down 3 times a day.

If I move, i think I'll switch pharmacy and make sure they know it's because of the dam horse pills they expect me to take. The hell with them.

Hope everyone's having a decent day.

My Social Anxiety Disorder loves to kick me in the rear every chance it gets! Yikes.

It's been 6 weeks now since I started (under Pdoc's supervision) weaning myself off Citalopram and now about a week since I've been off it completely.

I experienced symptoms including irritability, dizzyness, ditzyness, anxiety, and a number of physical symptoms too.

I mentioned anxiety. I've had to fall back on my CBT to cope. Thankfully I learnt some skills. Irritability has gone hand in hand with this increase in worrying (sorry folks). I haven't been able to really tell about the anxiety but in the last 48 hours I've noticed a significant drop in other symptoms I was experiencing. I am thinking more clearly and physically things seem to have returned to normal.

I have some major triggers coming up in the next 2 weeks that have me a little worried. Can I perform the requirements? WIll I cope with the social anxiety? Or will I look like an idiot, fall flat on my face, and freak out?

I'm not happy with this summer at all so far.

It could just be initial withdrawal symptoms. I hope it goes away soon.

I'm less anxious than normal today!!!

I am miserably anxious anf just miserable in general. Wondering why everyone else has an amazing life and everythings great while i ait here feeling like trash. I dont even want to leave the house because of the shame and the anxiety.

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My anxiety is OK today and I think it is because I'm physically ill. Had to go to the doctor for antibiotics and pain medicine.

I think I feel too crummy to feel anxious. I have to rest to get better and just feel too sick to ruminate over things.

I've been like this my entire life....calmer when I'm physically sick. Odd.