I am scared to death right now

I am alone and terified. I am afraid to get up or go outside. I don't want to talk to anyone because I am afraid of everyone. I am very scared

Well welcome! Glad you were able to post...at least you can have us and not feel as alone...

Welcome

It can be scary but you've made a good step in at least introducing yourself to us.. we will be here if you want to talk anytime.

I sent you a personal note a couple hours ago to let you know that you are not alone and there is no need to apologize for how you are feeling right now.

I can certainly relate to being afraid of everyone and am very glad that you have done your best to reach out. I know it's difficult, but please do keep trying, hun.

You are not alone - I too am terrified to be outside of my apartment. Today, for some reason is especially bad - I am too confused to really help you - just needed you to know that you are not alone!! Don't ever feel like you are.

I know how u feel. Maybe it would help if you started out in some regular chat and go from there its helped me out.

Hang in there, Hope to chat with you soon.

You are not alone!
I know how you feel and you just need to know that you are not the only one that deals with your issues. You can get thru this and you can accomplish anything.
When I was having alot of problems I found the people here and they have helped me soooo much, just to know that I wasn't alone and that there is a place that comfort can be found.
You can do it! You are making a big step in the right direction. Great Job!

Ok, I am new to this site and I am a 26 yar old female who has been suffering from: major panic/anxiety disorder, O.C.D., depersonalization disorder, depression/bipolar, and agoraphobia since I was in elementary school. So we wil just guestimate around 15 years. I didn't know what was wrong with me at first but then after years of fighting this demon a late night commercial came on talking about anxiety and panic disorder and I was like, "Oh my goodness, that is what I have!!?!? So there is actually something wrong with me i'm not just weird! So I told my mother that I believed I was havig panic and anxiety and she told me to suck it up and she didn't believe me. This was due in part to the fact tht her and my father, whom divorced when I was age 4, argued all the time about this problem because my father himself had it very bad. He also had S.V.T. , sudden ventricula tachycardia, and eventually had to have an ablation done. So when I told my mother this she blamed me "believing" I had this because my dad. My father never talked about this though so that couldnt have been it. Well to get on with things, I would have good times and bad times, as im sure we all do with our anxiety, and I had been doing extremly well until I got married and had my first child. After that it came back full throttle and worse than ever!! After months of losing weight and not being able to eat anything because it would make me vomit I decided to go see a psychologist. I was on a low dose of xanax at the time tht the E.R. Dr. had given me from being in and out of the hospital with heart palpitations. I have M.V.P. So I went to see this Dr. and I was put on xanax 1 mg 4-5 times daily. I was also put on 50 mg of zoloft. I never had any side effects from the zoloft until I started coming off of it. The xanax I LOOOVVVEEEDD!!!! I eventually did get extremely addicted to it and had to go through detox. I said I would NEVER take xanax again! That is the most awful feeling having withdrawls from something like that, i'm sure some of you out there know exactly what I am talking about. Well I did great there for a long time except the fact I couldn't really travel outside of my comfort zone. Then I met my hsband now and we had a baby and after I came home from having the baby everything came back again but it was worse than it had ever been! I was vomting three to four times a day with nothing inmy stomach, i would try to make myself eat but couldnt and would usually throw up in the process. I became extremly agoraphobic and didnt leavemy room or even take a bath for over a month. My husband was having to work and take careof everything. I wouldn't even get up to go to the bathroom, I would urinate in cups and he would dispose of them when he got home from work. He had to bring me all of my meals I was actually bedridden. So my mom actually called my Dr. and told him what was going on and he said that in order for me to get started on medications that I would have to come in for a visit. Which at the time was out of the question so I was homebound for over 10 months in 2006. My Dr. eventually turned my care over tomy mother, she would come by and give me my medicine and make sure I took it and all that stuff because my Dr. couldn't do anything for me unless I came in. So after finally getting on 150 mg of zoloft he wanted to put me on xanax and I was against it because what had happened last time. So he inisted that I tried Klonopin!! My mix of 150 mg of zoloft once a day and klonopin 1 mg three times a day was my God send. I was up and my normal self again after 1-2 moths of being on this coctail. I have been on several differnt medicatin throughout my suffering with this and that was the best fix for me. I am now back in school full time and out of the house I go and come as I pleas and am almost back 100% so for any of you out there this is what I would sugget you take to rid youself of the demon panic and anxiety disorder. For all of you women out there, you might have noticed in my paragraph that the two worst times I ever had with my panic and anxiety diorder was after giving birth to both my children. It hasn't been proven but I know in my case that is waht triggered mine to come back because it happend twice so if you can get out of the house I would highly recommend haveing your thyroid levels checked and your hormonial levels checked first thing. I am in the process of recieving my doctrine for nuclear medicine andi have a masters in genetics so i just didnt make this stuff up. Iknow what i'm talking about. If you cannot relate your anxietyto something in your environment you just have anxious episodes for no apparent reason you shoudl definately consider medications. I know how some of you out there are a little phobi about taking any medications because I used to be the same way too. It is so worth it though because it can and will heal you. Maybe not my exact drugs I am on but something will help you ad relieve you of this terrifying nightmare you have been living for only knows how long. I am here now if anyone needs any advice!! If you can check out my quizzes you can see what conditions I have and what I dont have. Oh yeah one more word to the wise, exercise is the best thing in ther world for people with anxiety disorder. It releases you of all your nervous energy you have. I would highly recommend exercise. Also make sure and drink drink drink plenty of water!!!! Water can help stablize mood and so can a proper diet!!