[Shaymus]

So yesterday my landlord stops by and drops off a letter for my girlfriend and me. Seems innocent enough im not too worried about it. Then my oldest step daughter asks if she can read it and so i say yes and she reads it out loud. To make a long story short it says she is looking to sell the house and if we arnt intrested in it she will be trying to sell it very soon. And that people(strangers) will be stopping by to do housework(painting and stuff like that) and other people who are intrested in buying the house. This means that i will have to move in the next month or so(something we cant afford,we can barely pay rent) and complete strangers will be walking in my house(im a slob and my house is a mess). This has me on the verge of a complete panic attack for the last 24 hours or so. I feel like there is no escape and that my life is messed up with no chance of possibly becoming even ok again. Medication or not i cant handle this and my girlfriend isnt around to help me this week(she had training about an hour and a half away) and i dont know what to do. In the past she helps me calm down and comes up with ideas of what to do. I thought medication would dull these huge stresses into little ones but instead it appears to make the little ones non existant and doesnt touch the big stresses. To top it off now i can feel like an even bigger loser for not working and hiding inside because we could afford to move if i wasnt such a huge drain on us. Ill end with my favorite quote "Life sucks and then you just keep on living,day after day after day".

[Shaymus]

Uggg

To top it off i just popped my tire while driving my step daughter to go cash her check for her. Why did that have to happen now? Im supposed to pick my girlfriend up an hour and a half away and i cant drive with a donut. Luckily my parents said they would help me either get a new tire or with picking her up. This is like the cherry on top of the sundae. My life stinks. If i could ever get to where my parents are in life id consider myself ahead of the game.

[Eezer]

u know u could always refuse to let anyone in the house and change the locks, i had a landlord who wanted to kick me out, but i wouldnt let him in the house altho i was eventually evicted... i was doing it for laffs
i did manage to live there for 3 months rent free and no bills, eventually the police kicked the front door in and i was arrested.... nothing new there lol. but seriously, get some peace of mind about ppl mooching around ur house at anytime, change those locks and get ur home back to urself, make sure ur landlord *has* to notify u exactly when ppl are going to come round, and u are there to let them in, cos in the uk, a landlord has no right to enter a rented property without prior notification, i dont know if tha applies to u where u are, but i would try and enforce that anyway, and ur landlord is trying to do a major dump on u, i would stall and stall until ur landlord gives way to u, and gives u the chance to find somewhere else

might all sound a bit harsh but i think he needs to be taught a lesson inb this case cos he is not allowed under UK law to treat u like this

love eezer

[SunshineGold03]

[Shaymus]

Sometimes it feels like im on a roller coaster of emotions. I just wish it would calm down and let me ride out calmness for a while. Id wonder if i was bipolar but these roller coaster feelings were all triggered by real events so i dunno. In the end my girlfriend came back home tonight and i have two new tires my parents paid for that i couldnt have afforded and needed to be replaced anyway. I wish i could have been thinking this to begin with but oh well.

I cant really do anything that would get me thrown in jail My parents help me out quite a bit when i need it and if i start acting out like i did when i was young im pretty sure that would end. The positive is i dont think the landlord will be able to sell the house. She wants $130k for an old house that is rotting on the outside and the electrical is majorly messed up. Plus the guy who lives upstairs doesnt even have heat. Plus the electrical bill in the winter(Minnesota) is like $350/month. This house is maybe worth 70-80k if that.

Why i dont remember when im freaking out that ive freaked out before and it turned out alright i dont know. I wish this would stop though.

[marst]

Maybe, sit and take a deep breath and concentrate on not reliving all of your hardships and think about how you're luckier than a lot of people. Focusing on the future and making everything better might stop the overwhelming stress of having one bad card dealt to you after another- just a suggestion! good luck for your future!

-Mary