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Sep 02, 2019 at 07:42 AM
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So, I've had an epiphany of sorts. I have really strange intrusive thoughts and visualizations at times, and this was no different. And as I held myself over the sink with the hot water running below, washing away the morning anxiety and vomit, realized that in most video games I play, as in anything else, if I sense that I am losing, or have already lost, I get bored and turn it off, rest it, or just don't play it anymore.
I have that same sense about life, and I think the OCPD and PTSD and depression and everything else are just my way of no longer playing anymore because there's no point. I'm bored with it, and my points are too far in the red to get them back to zero. One doesn't make efforts towards a goal that is unobtainable, and tricking oneself into thinking it is obtainable is just that, a trick, and one of the lowest and meanest sort because it denies the truth. |
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