Anxiety Daily Check-In point #7

I had a lot of anxiety earlier but I'm fine now. Maybe I'm thinking differently than I was before.

I have an appointment today, so I'm pretty anxious.

I had too much caffeine this morning for no reason. I just had a Mountain Dew craving. Then some other stuff happened and I then tried going out of my house and that just caused issues. I ended up taking 3mil of Xanax. I am worried because I don’t have many .5s left and if I take 3 of the 1mil when I’m only prescribed 2 a day, I’m gonna run out eventually of everything and possibly early. Which will turn into a huge issue.

But I am so chilled out right now and in a decent mood as a result of all the Xanax.

5 out of 10 anxiety scale wise. Did have a less stressful date at work and went out afterwards

I have another appointment today. So I'm anxious about that.

I got rid of all my personal Mountain Dew since it was causing so many issues. Especially yesterday. My brother still has his stash though and I need to not sneak any. I gave the soda to the food pantry. I am sure someone will be very excited about it. There’s a few seasonal kinds, the new watermelon one, and a few cases of a discontinued one that was always hard to find. But today my anxiety wasn’t too bad.

Today is another appointment. I'm anxious. But I need this appointment so I will do it. I'm trying to get dressed early and it's stressing me out.

My anxiety is pretty good today. Tuesdays and Wednesdays seem to be the most difficult for me. At least this week they were tough. This morning I was wondering how to do some stuff with my mom in the house. But she luckily got a call saying some stuff she had ordered was ready. So she was gone for an hour and I was able to get my issues situated before she came home.

I'm a little anxious this afternoon. I'm waiting on my mom to drop by to pick something up. I'm not exactly sure when she'll come by. I hope it's soon. I want to take a nap.

I had an espresso coffee this morning which caused huge anxiety. I lost track of how many Xanax I’ve taken. I think it’s 2.5.mil. They aren’t working. I wish I could kick the caffeine habit but I often feel sick and irritable if I don’t have caffeine. At least I’m not crabby today.

6 out of 10 .......I am a bit on edge being a worrywort

I feel stressed. I have things I have to do today, but I'm not really motivated to do them. It's causing some anxiety.

Right now I'm feeling a lot of anxiety. I hope it goes away pretty soon. It's such a destructive feeling.

@Breaking Dawn, I'm sorry you're feeling a lot of anxiety. I hope you can feel better soon. I think anxiety is the worst. You feel it in your mind and in your body. Maybe you settle down your mind but the body is still reacting. It's a tough one to deal with. I'm sending good thoughts your way.

Thank you, @Deilla! That's very comforting.

I overdid it on the caffeine again. Took 2mil of Xanax. Now I’m tired but my anxiety isn’t bad.

6 out of 10. I am mildly on edge and fearful.

I had a little anxiety this morning. I had to go to an appointment. It wasn't as bad as some days. I managed okay. I'm glad it's over.

I’m doing well with my anxiety today. Depression on the other hand....

I did take a Xanax early this morning around 8. The grocery store was kinda crowded but I wasn’t paying much attention to the crowds. My mom was impressed though at how well I handled it. It was mostly older people who I am guessing had their vaccines. I only saw a couple people my age.

I'm actually calm-ish right now. I've decided to accept that my time is running out. I promised my pups that I would repay them for keeping me going by being there for them on their final days. I love them so much. But it doesn't seem like it's up to me now. I'm very disappointed. They are my reason for living and I hate to let them down and worse, to abandon them.

My health anxiety is off the charts the last few days. Haven't had a panic attack yet, but the worry seems worse than ever. I am very tired because I'm not getting good sleep and we got snow overnight. I'm also very hungry, which I know stresses the body. So, the logical part of me knows there is a lot going on to cause this anxiety, but the not logical part has decided that my days are numbered. That part wins too frequently.

Anyway, I'm not actually panicking. I'm weirdly calm, trying to think of the things I need to take care of. The pups are acting a litle weird so they probably know something is up. I've tried to be extra affectionate with them, but it becomes overwhelming emotionally and I usually end up freaking them out because I start crying. I should take them for a walk because I don't know how many we have left.

It was an adequate life. Sorry it's coming to an end before fulfilling my purpose and my promise to them. They deserve better.

Lots of hugs & love to you, @AgentQ9A!

Thank you Breaking Dawn! It has been a nightmare week. I appreciate your hugs and love and response.

I'm anxious about my doctor's appointment tonight.

had my first therapy appointment in over two months today. I was bad and forgot about a whole mess of appointments I had before and got put on suspension cause I missed to many before. But now that I can go back and see my therapist again I am in much higher spirits and know not to have an incident like this happen again.

most of my anxiety, recently was due to a really bad car accident I had a couple of months back that was quite traumatizing to deal with. But now things are starting look up again, and I know can better manage and cope with my anxiety and emotions in general with the aide of a therapist.

Anxious to start Wellbutrin