Anxiety Daily Check-In point #8

I had really bad anxiety last night. I had a mug of apple cider and then today I remembered that apple juice and cider causes such severe anxiety for me that I can’t even drink them. It’s the one food I like that I don’t continue to drink and be like “I’ll just deal with the affects.” Because when I drink apple juice their is no relief for my anxiety no matter what I take or how much. I actually googled it when I first started noticing it and you should actually avoid apple juice if you have anxiety. Honestly this is totally bizarre. But apple juice is worse for my anxiety then coffee and Mountain Dew combined. I swore off it a few years ago and then just forgot. So I’m kind of thinking that’s why I was such a 3 Valium at once mess last night. I had a mug with dinner.

Today my anxiety is kinda high. Not like last night. I think it’s what I’ve been eating today. Just cereal, goldfish crackers, and 2 tablespoons of peanut butter. When I was on my trip and eating steak and French onion soup and salmon and salad and vegetables and sweet potatoes I felt great.

I had anxiety in therapy. I only took half a Valium this morning. I said to her “I only took half a Valium this morning so I’m not wasted on them.” She said she appreciated it. I asked if she noticed my anxiety and she said yeah that my leg was bouncing the whole time and I was wringing my hands. I don’t normally get that way during a session. It wasn’t even a bad one. Once I left I felt ok with my anxiety just tired. Right now I’m not very anxious but I could use my 3rd Valium. Taking half’s of ones doesn’t really work for me.

I had a lot of caffeine to combat my exhaustion but I didn’t have any anxiety as a result of the caffeine. I was more crabby and frustrated today then anxious.

I don't really feel anxious. I'm just tired and sad.

You know how in spongebob when he keeps tripping over his shoe lace while making the krabby patties and the patties keep flying into squidwards mouth and he ends up eating so many patties until he’s huge and bloated and then he says “I think my heart just stopped”

Yeah that’s how I’m feeling right now. But I haven’t screwed with my Geodon in awhile so I don’t think I’m having anything more then just crappy regular anxiety.

Having one of those days where everything feels stressful and I can't make a decision. I probably need to just get through the day and hopefully I will feel differently tomorrow.

My anxiety was rough today. I don’t think I had enough caffeine in the morning. I had half of what I usually have. The more caffeine I drink early in the morning the less my anxiety is throughout the day. I also haven’t been sleeping the greatest ever since I got my moms memory foam bed.

I don't know that it's anxiety so much, maybe frustration and disappointment.

I have super bad anxiety right now. It’s been bad all day but right now it’s really bad. I know I’m just antsy about the doctors office calling. I have like 3 more hours until the office closes to get a call from them. Or else I’m out of luck until Monday at the earliest. I’ve been taking an extra Valium for a few days in a row and I don’t like doing that. I haven’t taken my 3rd prescribed one yet so I’m hoping that will be enough to get me through the night.

I've been doing ok.

Anxiety has not been a problem lately for me. I have the opposite problem - too much apathy.

I’ve just been splitting up my geodons all day. So I haven’t felt much anxiety. I felt it a bit a few minutes ago but I think I just ate too much because I took some Pepto Bismol and I feel ok now.

I am feeling apprehension.

I feel a little anxious. My cats have me stressed.

I’ve been doing good at not taking Valium when I feel physically sick. These last 2 nights I’ve taken pepto bismol for my upset stomach and it has helped since my stomach ache hasn’t been anxiety. When the pepto bismol doesn’t work then I know it’s anxiety.

I'm experiencing anxiety at the moment.

My anxiety is moderate today. It's to be expected since I'm adjusting to a new living situation.

I feel stressed today. I'm easily annoyed. I guess cause I quit vaping. Today is day 6.

Congratulations, Deilla! But I'm sorry about your stress. I hope it goes away soon.

I can’t tell if my heart is racing because of anxiety and lack of Valium or if the med combo I took last night to help me sleep messed with me.

I had one Valium at 10:15 but then when I got home over an hour ago I made a mug of tension tamer tea. Which does help with my anxiety but it’s not really a substitute for benzos.

I'm anxious and upset. My online therapist was supposed to respond this afternoon. She just left a message stating she will respond in the morning. That's ********. She responds every morning. So I just missed out on today, which is no help at all. I've been struggling. I could have used her help.

My anxiety is moderate again today

I feel like my insides are quivering.

My anxiety is always the same.
Chronic social anxiety.
I need a RL friend
That helps.
I just started talking to someone on another site.
But once I mention the RL social anxiety, I just get ghosted Everytime.
And that hurts so bad

I’m worried among other things that I have a UTI. But I think it’s just nerves about the whole probable catheter that will happen. The last time I thought I had a uti it was negative. I’ve been using OTC stuff and drinking a lot of cranberry juice and water trying to flush out my system.